I'm lost, lost in the never ending loop of yearning for something. I can't place it. Material gains will only bring me a set amount of joy for it is what I want rather than what I need. I am empty. Emotions don't feel like they used to. I don't feel like I used to. I want to feel.

****

No matter what you'll move on
He doesn't define you
Just remember one solid fact
You will never unswallow his ***

I'm sick
I'm tired
I can't stand the effect of the weather
It's a joyous time but ***** it because it got me sick
Allergies **** ****
At least there's hot chocolate

I'm not sure what todo with life
College is so far yet it's so close
Being a junior is the most exhausting and tiring experiences I've had so far in my 17 years of life
I don't know what the future will hold and I'm not scared but at the same time I am
Quite the paradox
I have confidence but I fear I'll falter
It's always been my kind of thing to ramble

Her eyes were clearly vacant
Completely unaware to the fact of how much she crosses my mind
Unfailable beauty charts her every move
A goddess in my eyes
Everything I could want
She never looks
I do
She doesn't want me but I'll always wait for her

Normality is a facet of life
Conforming and yearning to fit it
Not knowing what true happiness is
Fearful of being found
The one inside
Hiding
Escape this woeful trend
Escape!
Be free
Be learned
Be you