I'm not quite educated
But I can educate you on how I feel
Yes the pills
My own safe haven
Behind the pills is
The only place I can call home
Because that's the only place where I don't care if I'm laughing too loud or not!
where I'm free to be me
Where I don't have to get scared if I would be accepted
Where I can play like a kid again
It feels real But doesn't last long
It's just like a trans just that  the feelings are real

The love I gave
The hate I received
The faith I had
The truth I never knew
For in truth I was betrayed and
Nailed  to the cross of silence
Friends aren't real

If I back down call me a fool
If I don't win that means it's true
It's true I was born to fail

As I close my eyes to sleep
all my **** ups starts playing like a full movie
when I open my eyes it turns into a long audio clip
my only escape route from those thoughts is when I'm high
because when I'm high even though they still play but I no longer care !
Maybe then I have to stay high

I never knew how you felt when I said those words
I wish I could take back each word !
But I guess it's too late
I wish I knew
I really wish I knew
I wish you could hear me say
I'm sorry

Her waist
Her pride
She has set a price on her thigh
Every morning she stare at the mirror
Adoring her eyes
With her upper teeths clipping her lower lips to her lower teeths
She's fascinated by her own beauty
Outside her door you would see men they fight
At the glance of her even the king's sighs

Grandma tell us a story!

Yesterday I was
Today I am
Tomorrow I might be or I might not

If tomorrow I still be, then I would tell you another story
But if I'm no longer her tomorrow then I become your story!

Always remember every story must have an end for another story to begin