Are you there,
or have you left?
Do you visit,
to tear me apart?

Long ago,
you used to be by my side,
but now you're gone.
I miss the joy,
that once came with you.

I guess it could only last so long,
through my depressing life.
It’s ok, I thought,
hope will keep me going.
I was wrong.

I feel stupid to think that.
It betrayed me,
leaving me wondering,
where it had gone.

Now there is utter silence,
leaving a gaping hole in my heart.
It seems you’ll never come back,
To fix me again.

It hurts,
having nothing left,
not even Hope.
I can’t escape,
out of this horrid prison.

The ladder is broken,
so is the rope,
to climb back out.
But strangely,
i’m ok with that.

I don’t really feel anything anymore,
even though I know I should,
I guess I’m ran through,
or just out of Hope.

I miss having you,
please come back,
my precious Hope.

Why do we try to fly,
in these clouds of change?
They hurt us,
Mostly me.

The worst is when you fall,
Going lower and getting hurt.
There’s no need for it.
I’d rather stay alone down here.

I’ve learned from my past,
going too high is gonna **** you.
Not physically,
but. . .emotionally.

It’s hard,
Knowing everyone you love,
has now left you.

It’s sad,
Being alone.
It feels different,
A little bit terrifying.

There is no one to blame,
well, beyond yourself.
It’s the painful truth,
you’ll never wanna face it.

But,
In those moments you spend alone,
they can be the best times.
If your like me,
it makes you start to wonder . . .

Reality is weird.
It taunts you,
but also love you?
It makes the best people sad,
and the worst happy.

Its like reading a book,
you don’t know whats going to happen,
but you guess.
And when the end is near,
You think about everything that happened.

You might smile,
you might cry.
No one knows but you.

Sometimes life gets hard,
And reality’s a hard place.
So, you drift far away,
into the land of imagination.

As you step in,
you see dreams come true,
a fantasy becomes reality.
Everything you’ve ever wanted,
is now by your side.

You are free from all judgment,
no one you have to be perfect for,
you are free to be you.
Everything you’ve lost,
Comes back into this world.

As you continue to walk,
there's no sadness or grief.
I am standing next to you,
laughing as the sunsets.
Everything is peaceful.

The walls feel soft and cozy,
but you know nothing can hurt you here.
No matter how weak it feels,
you do not question its security.

And when times time comes,
To go back to your realty,
You will.
But this time,
you’ll be happy.

When I sleep,
i am happy.
When I wake,
i see nightmares.

Torture through the thoughts,
Saying no when I wanna say yes.
I am fighting a war,
A war between my heart and logic.
Why are you here, you vicious monster?

That monster is my reality,
crushing every dream,
leaving another thing to run from.

The monsters have bruised me up,
ripped me to shreds,
and left me to rot.
But, it’s ok,
They’ll go away . . .

Right?

No.
They ripped everything left,
of the truth that once was.
Save me, i scream into the void,
but, unfortunately, everyone has left me.

They left me alone,
with these hungry creatures,
ready to feast on my joy.
I can’t run.
I can’t hide.

I am forever stuck with them.
But, they’ll never show,
for humanity bans it.

I am on an edge,
the world forcing me to think,
“Will I live?
Or shall I die?”

I plead for help,
from the invisible forces of the world.
The forces that keep this,
this horrid cycle going.
But, they remain silent.