Pressure, pressure
Weighing down
Sweat and tears leech in

Form a crust, 
Protect we must 
My depleted heart

A Catalyst begins
Quickly filling in
The crystals appear and multiply!

You unassuming geode, bursting at the seams!
When will you grab the hammer and
Take a swing at me?

Crack me open!
Spill me out!
Smash the shell away!

Strength from my sorrow,
Growth through the pain, 
Courage to bare it all

Time to commence 
The debut of 
My crystalline heart

On your feet. Be quick.
Bang! To the draw.
Not as quick as I used to be.
Some slower. Quicker others.
Tortoise wins the race.
Wisdom is the tortoise.
Gratification is the hare.
The finish line isn't what it seems.

Two passing ships in a sea adrift
Drifting further away
On trips of their own
Speeds unknown
At the lighthouse will we meet?

Keep it together 
Maintain control 
Tighten your grip
It slips
Damage control
Gather it up
The harder I hold
Farther the slip
Inching under
Tread
Kick harder
Don’t lose it
Maintain control 
Something grabs a hold
Pulls me under
Sinking
Gasping
Submerged 
Noise around turns to white 
Maybe it's not so bad
To slip under
Float away 
Lungs throb 
Can't take it 
Let me up for air

Your words pierce my raft 
No bucket to bail out

My mask starts to slip
Choke down the lump
Blink back the sting 

Maintain your grace 
While searching for an escape 
Water now rushing in 

If you’ll excuse me please 
time to leave
before I
drown on dry land

A spot in a world full of lines

Connect the dots
Fill in the spots

Blend them all in till you fit right on in
Hide who you’re supposed to be 

Smudging and smearing 
Indulgence is fleeting
Desperate to be washed off

That pen has run dry 
Time to say goodbye and
Let my spots stand out

***** a silencer to my mouth
I’ll shoot myself anyways

Lining up my hateful names and
all the stupid things I’ve done

Load them into the chamber
one
by
one

My cylinders full
Ready to take my aim
Pull back the hammer
Click…

Bang!

If sticks and stone may break my bones
Whats the harm?