Why is it that you give your heart out
To only have it shattered
Having your heart thrown out
And scattered
But your love for them soars
So much so you’ll do anything for them
Even if it means leaving you in tears
Wanting them to be happy
Even if it means they aren’t yours
I know this sounds sappy
But love and true love
Are two different things
Love is being in love
True love is putting your feelings aside and putting theirs above
Even if it means you fall back
No matter how much pain your in
All you want is their happiness
Even if that means leaving yours packed
Putting your happiness behind
So they can be happy
They are your sunshine
You dont want to give them up
But you put it aside
Sometimes feeling stuck
But you deal with it
So you can still have them in your life
Even if it means as a friend
Even if it means sometimes feeling like your heart got stabbed by a knife
You push it back on the tough days
Try not to show them how much your heart weighs
Missing them and yearning your heart does
Missing what once was.....
All you want is that light that shined so bright
To be happy and love the way she deserves to be
Even if it means that light turns onto someone else
So i sit here writing this tonight
Writing these feelings out
Accepting our fate
Accepting you are in love with someone else
And your heart belongs to them and is not mine
Letting go of all this weight
This weight that held me down for so long
This weight i will not carry anymore
I will let go of these feelings so strong
And accept we will only be friends
You are worth being friends with
You are worth keeping in my life
I will try and give you the best advice
And help when you need it
Even on my harder days
When i struggle with the pain
And my feelings want to pour out like rain
Ill accept my loves fate
And help you with the weight
You’ll forever be my sunshine
From sunrise to moonlight
Always

Life
Something we never cherish
We seem so careless
Carless of a life given to us
Carless of the life given to others
Why does it matter of the colors
Aren’t we all sisters and brothers
Cant we all band together
And help each weather
Weather this sickness
A sickness that has made us victims
Victims of this forsaken illness
A illness so vicious
People being suspicious
No i’m not talking about race
But thats also another thing we shouldn’t deface
But at another time
Im talking about a different crime
A crime of carelessness
A crime of recklessness
The people only ask for one thing
A simple thing to bring
A mask
A little thing that has became peoples life lines
But a few people cant follow a few guidelines
Guidelines to keep a life
Instead of sending them to the afterlife
A mask
The only thing saving a life
I ask of you
Of a very simple thing to do
Wear a mask
A simple task
Help care for a life
Maybe someones wife
Just wear a mask
Is all i ask

Love makes us do crazy things
Even giving away rings
Something I’ve considered
Couldn’t stop the flowing river
The river of love
Something I can’t wait to be part of
Love the thing that ties us
Leaving things to discuss
Things like kids
Things people forbids
Discussing life
With my future wife
Growing and learning
All while yearning
Marriage a title that we use to show our love knot
Something we were taught
The one thing we weren’t taught about
Something you dont hereabout
The little connection
That leaves a lasting impression
A string that connects two hearts
That can’t be torn apart
Sending things we dont say
Like i will not stray or hey
Saying I love you with out words through a bond
Something that makes us respond
That string that connects the two
A soulmate string that says i love you
Forever pulling the two closer and closer
Leaving chills all over
A love they share
Nothing can compare
To the words they share through a bond they share

Strength, the thing that defines us
But is so hard to discuss
Strength isn’t just how much you can lift
Its something you find when there is a rift
Its not something that can be given
Or something that can’t be written
Its something that you earn
Something people yearn
Strength, the thing that we can share
To the ones we love to show them were always there
Strength isn’t just weights
Its the very thing that carries us through the gates
Strength, is going through things and carrying them on your own
Taking things from others and being the backbone
Strength is pushing your pains aside
And taking others pains that they try to hide
Taking that pain and adding it to your own
And baring it alone
Strength, is letting someone take your pain
Letting them carry your chain
Giving access to all your scars
Strength, the very thing that.....You Are

A girl so adorable
So lovable
Never knew i would have this girl
That told me lets give it a whirl
Having this girl
This beautiful love
That was sent from above
This girl I’ve dreamed of
Right in my hands
Giving my all seeing where it lands
This girl that i hold so dear
Kicking my love into high gear
Falling oh so deeply
Ever so sweetly
This girl i never want to let go
A girl i wish to bestow
My life
Someone i might call.....MY WIFE

So beautifully designed
Yet so hard to find
Im so lucky to have something so rare
unwilling to share
My Tiger Lily
All that I hold dearly
Is in your hand
My heart you command
You fill that hole
Thats inside my soul
So much sooner before i knew her
With you I see the future
My Tiger Lily
Oh I love you silly
You are my everything
The sweet flower that blooms
Brighter than the moons
My Tiger Lily
I love you
Oh so true
Oh so clearly
My beautiful, Tiger Lily

A wolf wondering
A raven hovering
A pull the wolf feels
Nipping at its heels
A calling the raven hears
Something she fears
The Wolf follows
The Raven swallows
This pull leading
Something feeding
The Wolf searches
To see where a raven perches
The raven sitting all so perfect
Pondering this effect
This effect this pull
Something in full
wolf notices the raven
Feeling this sudden craving
raven so scared
Of something shared
Slowly this pulls closer
Slowly the wolf approaches
raven inching closer,  yet guarded
From being discarded
Wolf slowly endearing
Never disappearing
Slowly the ravens guards fall
Falling like a waterfall
The two meet
Something oh so sweet
The wolf and the raven
Did they find their new haven

The raven so silent
Once so vibrant
Nights of crying
Mornings of laughs
Slowly hiding
Hiding the wounds that never left
The wounds thats inside her chest
Still there slowly prying
Prying to be free
Her love never dying
Does she tell thee
Or keep on hiding
The wounds of the heart
That tear her apart
Her love never halting
But ever so haunting
Of what she holds dear
Her heart filled with fear
Fear of who is missing
Her dove dismissing
Leaving open wounds
And the raven missing

After I sign this paper
Everything changes
From reading newspapers
To enlisting
3 years of change
Change that feels so strange
Leaving your family behind
Because of a paper that you signed
Thoughts flood my head
Of when Ill be deployed
Will there be tears shed?
If I shall come up dead?

Her heart broken
Keeps breaking when she sees her
Slowly she builds her walls
Walls to keep her from breaking down
Walls to keep people out
She locks her heart away
With chains In a box it will stay
She pushes her feelings down
Locks them away
A oath she says
Of never letting anyone in
Never getting close to anyone
All it does is cause her pain
Pain she cant go through again
This one sent her back
Back to the days of self hatred
The days of recalling being left
Days of feeling alone
She already lost one of the most important people in her life
And now another...
Part of her heart she will never get back
It was taken by the one thing that made her happy.....
Only thing that made her happy
Part of her heart will be forever hers
Never will she ask for it back
All she wants......
Is her back....

Pain of a broken heart
Something shes never thought she would see from this
Sadly her heart was torn apart
From the very thing she let in
The very thing she let her walls down for
So broken she is...
So broken she wants everything to go away and fade
How can she get the pain of her feelings to fade
How can she just let her go
The pain of letting her love go.
The love she had....
Now gone....
Her heart now shattered all over the floor
She stares at her heart in pieces
Cries over them
Cuts her hands at clutching at the broken pieces
All she sees is what she once gave someone
Someone who still has her....heart
But someone she doesn't have anymore....
Forever broken....

As she lies in bed
Cant help but feeling
A feeling she knows to well
A feeling she wants to escape
Why cant she escape this thought inside her head
Why cant she bury it
Why is this feeling coming back
This feeling of drifting
A feeling of losing someone she loves
Love something shes never had never felt before
Something she wants and misses
Not something.......someone
The one she let her walls down for
The one who's made her world brighter and not so dark
Someone giving her hope that she can be loved
Or so she thought
Thoughts flooding
Thoughts of she cant be loved
Thoughts of shes a **** up
That's shes done something wrong
Is she pushing her love away
The love she would give up everything for
The love she let her walls down for
To be weak in front of
Can she fix what is broken
Or will she forever be broken

Anger.....
Anger the very thing that eats at you
Eats at you so slow
So slowly you feel it knocking
Knocking to be let out
Hunger....
So hungry for blood
Internally growling
Growling so quietly
Quietly screaming
Screaming to be let out
Screaming **** this
The beast awakens
So awake it claws
Claws and destroys
Destroys its self.
Beauty its silencer
Silences the screaming
Beauty its healer
Healing the damage
Beauty the saviour
Saving the beast from its destruction
Saving it with a smile
With a touch
A touch so gentle yet stern
Grounding the beast
With a single touch
A voice so calming
Calming the raging storms
Beauty the one thing the beast will surrender  to
Beauty the one thing that can tame a beast
The beast the one thing that never falls
Yet falls to such beauty
Beauty and the beast
Two entwined with each other
Each other's saviours and protectors
Beauty and the beast
A tale as old as time....

Raven pours her soul out
Tells dove she will never fall
She'll never shout
Forever she will stay
Never will she doubt
She's forever gay
For you I will not stray
I'll give up my dark ways
Give up the stealing  
Forget the fighting
Throw away the drinking
No more delays
Dove tells raven
No more
I cant lose you my haven
Forever you promised
Dont lose what I have given........my heart

She never knew the smell of lavender would be her safe place
Let alone the beautiful girl
The girl she wants to embrace
To interlace their hands
Something so small but wants so badly
Soon everything will go according to her plans
Plans of seeing her lavender scent
Plans of entwined hands and warm embraces
That day she cant wait for her girl who is heaven sent
Lavender the scent of her love
The scent she knows all to well
Lavender the scent of love

The twist and turns of the mind
Can be the thing that holds up back
Thoughts that can keep you bind
Racing and causing stress
But also can make you blind
Thoughts you wish to hide
Thoughts you dont want twined
Struggling with them soring
You try and center yourself but how can you keep your self aligned
You fight and fight
Oh how the thoughts are so unkind
The feeling of being so confined

On a Starry night
Raven and her dove
Snuggled in the lamplight
Raven looked at her dove
Lamplight shining  on her face
Looking at the night sky above
Her dove smiling, eyes sparkling in the light
All she could dream of was right in front of her
She knew that was the night to ask her to unite
She stood up, kneeled down if front of her dove
Took her hand, rubbing circles with her thumb
As she looked up she recited her love
Told her without her there is no light
Without her the world is upside down
She then told her dove she wanted to unite
Unite their love forever
As she waits for her dove to answer
She Hope's for forever and ever
Will her dove say she wants forever
Or will she say.......never

Raven so mysterious
Yet so beautiful
Strong and wise
Yet so quiet
Her laugh captivating
Her voice sweet
Her eyes mesmerizing
Her smile to die for
Her love everlasting.

As she waits for a call
She sits and watches the night sky
In the cold and late fall
Waiting for that moment
That moment of love
That moment of growing
She waits for that call
To tell her to come over
She sits and waits on her car trying to stall
she hears this tone
One she knows all to well
She answered the phone
And hears the voice of her lover
Telling her it's time
Time to come over
She says ok I'll be there
On her way there
All she can think of is her beauty
When she arrives
She is greeted by this cutie
Tells her to come inside
As she walks in and leaves her coat
She hears her lover saying come and sit
She sits with her lover side by side
Little did she know she wasnt there for a movie
As they watch
She Is distracted by her beauty
So much she gets caught staring
Her lover just smiled
Looked at her all so charming
Told her she is her one and only
Leaned in and kissed her lips
She never thought they would get this closely

She must let go of the love she once knew
Let go of the pain she is going through
Why must she do this to you
Why must she cause so much pain
Time to let go to the girl she once knew
Farewell my love
For you have never grew
For I must leave
Cause your love was untrue
Yes I might feel blue
But that's nothing from the pain I'm in from not knowing you
Again I want to bid thee a farewell
And hope you can forgive me but I must do what is right for thy heart
And leave at the sound of the church bell

She feels so alone
Why must this feeling haunt her
This feeling she wants to disown
Why cant she leave this feeling behind
Leave that ghost that haunts her
All she wants is to find
That one person who will show her what it means to be loved
She feels like she will forever be alone
Will she ever leave the feeling of being unloved
Will she ever find the one person who sets her world on fire
Someone she can be herself with
Someone she can spend the nights cuddled up by the bonfire
Someone she can lay with and star gaze
Someone that stays
Or will she forever have this ghost.

I sometimes find my self feeling like I'm not enough. In those times the thoughts I have is why cant I do more or I should be doing more with my life. Than what I'm doing now. The other thought is I need to do things so I can take care of my self or others when its needed and not depend on others. But today I had a friend who was going through the same thing that she wasnt enough. That she should do more and not depend on others. I told her she was enough. That some of her family depends on her and told her she was doing great. Told her how amazing her life is. In that moment I realized we all sometimes feel like we arent enough. That we could do better....be better. Or we are a disappointment. But we aren't made to be perfect or to do everything. In that moment I saw what the world needs to be told. How wonderful they are...how loved they are... you are needed...how strong they are.... YOU ARE ENOUGH!!!

The wolf howls for its lover.
A lover just out of reach.
The wolf crys out why cant she love her,
Why cant she hold her.
The wolf says why must it be this way,
Is it me?
Why cant she give me the time of day.
The wolfs heart yearns for her lover.
Yearns for her beautiful eyes, yearns for her beautiful smile her beautiful laugh.
The wolf doesnt want another.
She wants to be able to hold her and never let go.
Little did the wolf know
Her lover yearned for her as well
Yearned for her glow
Yearned for her beautiful voice.
But shes afraid to fall.
Can she take the leap?
And answer the call.

The raven and her love
A love so pure
all she dreamed of
But sadly her love is crumbling
Slowly it falls and breaks
Leaving the raven stumbling
She feels her love drifting
Away from her
Feels it slowly shifting
From a wonderful, amazing thing
To feeling pushed away
Not just pushed away but like her love wants her to push her away
She doesnt know how to feel
One thing she does know her world feels grey
she misses how close they were
Misses their moments
But how much can she bare
How long can she wait
Does she give up and leave
Or wait for her mate

She loses her mind
Loses it to her thoughts and feelings
Thoughts and feelings that are twined
She wishes they would fade away
So she can feel free
And not feel like prey to the thoughts and feelings that play her mind
Thoughts and feelings so often of loneliness, anger
She wants to find.
The feelings of companionship
She gets so close to that perfect feeling for it to fly away like a leaf in the wind.
All she can do is sit and watch the wind take it away from her grasp.
So the thoughts of loneliness come flooding back.
She pushes it back and closes her feelings off
So no one sees shes crying inside
Crying for that perfect feeling
Feeling of never being lonely feeling of someone coming and unlocking her heart. Untill then she watches the leaves fall and fly away. Waiting for the key to set her free.