I am at war with myself,
I can't see the light,
I'm surrounded by monsters.

I'm not alright,
I am all alone
Since you left.
I've lost my smile,
I've lost my tears,
I've lost my heart.

I'm hidden in the darkness,
A broken man,
Lost in the abyss.
Tired of walking,
Endless dreaming,
Thoughtless searching,
Looking for someone,
Someone who doesn't exist,
Someone...
I've lost a long time ago.

I can't pretend it doesn't hurt,
Honestly...
I can barely stand.

Don't listen to these lies I sing so carelessly,
Don't trust the promises I make so effortlessly,
Don't believe the story I tell so endlessly.

I am a deceiver,
I lie...
I betray...
I destroy all,
With nothing but my words.

I wasn't hers to fix,
but she fixed me still.
I could push and shove,
but when I looked again,
she was helping me still.

She put me back together
and I was finally happy again.
But the world,
It has taken many things from me.

So when the world finally broke her,
I was more broken than
than when she found me...

And there was nobody like her,
Nobody to fix me this time.
Nobody to take this person
and make him whole again.
© 4 months ago   love • pain • sad

If I could hold
The world in my hand,
I would let it burn
Like I once did.

Oh, how I once burned,
So bright, and so clear.
But the brighter I burned,
The deeper I sank,
The faster I died.
And all I ever did
Was burn brighter.

If I could wish
For one little thing,
I would ask
To be born in darkness.

A place where there is
nothing,
No light to shine,
No fire to burn.
A place where
I never died.

When the moon was high in the sky,
When the light was bright in me,
When good was winning,
I promised to be your white knight.

But then evil started winning,
Darkness began to corrupt me,
Light started fading.
And instead of your knight,
I became the demon
That haunts your dreams,
And the evil
You can never forget.

As I saw her walk away,
As I heard the words she spoke,
I watched my world fall apart,
Right before my eyes.
Powerless,
Useless,
To stop it.

How do you keep going,
When your world
Just walked away from you?
Said good-bye and left,
Leaving you with nothing.
An empty heart,
A broken world,
A meaningless life?

When I finally had the strength...
Or the courage
To walk again,
It was like I walked into hell.

There was no light or dark.
Just an all consuming nothingness.

I cried to the stars
When you left my life.
You forced me to take the knife,
It's your fault I'm behind bars.

Why is the world no longer amazed?
Why do you now look at me in disdain?
The life around is no longer dazed,
You say there was nothing to gain.
So why didn't we end it then
If it was all going to fall apart in the end?

Did you think
I would let it end in a blink?
Did you think I would let it go?
There was still so much I wanted to know!!

I guess you never knew
Of the plan I started to brew.
You thought I was wicked before,
But soon you will be no more.

You saw the end coming
Just as you started running.

She is the light within my darkness,
But I am the darkness within her light.

When I am surrounded by darkness,
When all I can feel is the cold wind of the void,
When everything has abandoned me,
When their eyes judge me,
When their voices curse,
When their existence denies me…

I am alone, I am without a reason
...I am nothing.
I need someone
...to take my darkness.

When I was walking in the darkness,
I came upon a girl walking on the line
Between Light and Dark,
While I was running from my demons,
She was dancing with her demons.
She wasn’t afraid, just alone.
She wanted someone else to play with.

Since the day we met,
My demons have been calling her name
More often than mine.
And my darkness took on a different shade.
I could breath easier,
I could see clearer,
I could speak louder,
I could run further,
I could fight harder.

But she got colder, her touch void of heat.
She ran slower, her feet void of movement.
She smiled less, her lips void of color.
She cried more, her eyes void of miracles
And we switched sides, she started walking in the darkness.
And her heart hardly had a beat.
She barely kept breathing, moving.
While I walked on the line
Between Light and Dark.

I am living in a graveyard.
Hollow echoes of people I used to know,
All around me.
Their presence still haunt my mind.

First was my cousin,
Oh how she loved the light,
So much that she ran right into one.
Then my best friend,
He took a leap of faith
Off the nearest cliff.
My dad loved gambling,
Till one day,
He decided to play Russian Roulette
And lost.

But they weren't alone.
And soon neither will I.
As time went on
And more left me behind,
I soon realized,
I was walking on a grey line.
All alone.

I am living in a Graveyard,
A house with nothing
But stone to talk to.

Oh, this world of mine is burning,
But I can’t seem to stop exploring its embers.
I am still searching for…
For something that’s missing.
My hands and feet are charred,
But I can’t stop pursuing.

I know I can never stop searching
I have only found it once...
A long time ago.
But have forgotten what it looks like,
What it feels like
And all that remains of it is the sound it made.
It was the sound of happiness
All that I can hear is the waters of sorrow.

When can I stop looking?
My feet are tired,
their nerves are dead already,
My hands are scorched,
they can barely move,
My body is exhausted and tired,
But my heart is yearning for it.
It wants this pain
To replace the pain
of that missing piece.

The light casts a shadow
And the shadow eases the pain.
Quiets the screams of the forgotten voice,
...But comforting a growing emptiness
And sometimes I scream along,
As if to mimic it,
as if it isn’t lost yet.
But no matter the screams,
no matter the bleeding,
I am empty and without it.

My heart is bleeding
It feels like it’s all dried out,
Like its blood ran empty
when the missing piece got away.
When will the blood flow again?
When will I find that missing piece?

I ask this of you;
give me not power,
for I shall use it
to destroy you!

I beg this of you;
give me not freedom,
for I shall use it
to cage you!

I plead this of you;
save me not,
for it will suffocate you
in the darkness
that dwells within me!

I am your nightmare.
Don't worry my dear,
I'm not going anywhere.

I'm right behind you.
I watch your steps,
I see your mistakes,
I haunt your dreams,
I get inside your head,
And you'll see me
Just before it ends.

I am your worst nightmare,
But you can't live without me.
I chase all the demons away.

How can I escape my past?
      How long will it take
To get rid of my mask?
      Remembering makes my heart ache,
      It's enough to make my body shake.

I was called a freak,
I was called a creep,
      They told me I belong
At the bottom of a creek,

Every time I speak
They'd say I'm just a ****.
      I was nothing special all along,
But I'm the person they know about the least.

When the time is right,
When it's my turn to fight,
They'll know what it's like to be weak.
They'll see, I was never bleak,
Just discrete.

Please tell me
What it's like
To break my heart?

Please tell me
What it feels like
To see me unmade?

Please tell me
Why did I need to suffer?
Please tell me
What did I ever do to you?

What is it you hope to gain?
Will it set you free?
Will it give you a place
To belong?

Please tell me
How can I stop the bleeding?

Our end is nigh,
My dream was to fly,
But now all will die.

I was thought unbreakable,
I was called unbearable.

When all was hope was lost,
When nothing was too high a cost,
Only then was I not made of frost.

Why do they refuse to see my scars?
It's like I'm a distant star,
They always treated me like Mars.

If only I truly was that god of war,
Maybe then they'll hear my roar.

Fueled by my rage,
From within this cage,
Not even a sage
Could predict the wars I will wage.

I am the son of a demon,
But I am no devil,
The Devils despise me,
But Man fear me.

The world has put me in a cage,
from which it thought
I could never escape from.

THEY left me!
THEY branded me!
So THEY will suffer!

I was left to the mercy of this world,
And it had none left to spare me.
I am now a survivor of it,
no longer a prisoner in it.

Would you listen to my cry,
as I hold you
as you slowly die?

I cover my heart
in ****** and brutal
rose petals.

Wondering if it can cure my heart
so I don't find you in a grave
or hoping it will dull
the truth and the pain.

Hoping my heart's wound
can finally be healed,
just wish it's not too late.

Would you listen to my cry from above,
as my heart gives in from all the pain
that it's had to sustain?

You'll never see my face,
but I'll be there.
You'll never hear my voice,
but I'll be listening.

When you pick up that letter,
and read "I'm always watching you,
I'm right behind you."
You somehow look right past me
and ask yourself "Where? Where?!"

But don't worry,
I'll have your back.

Don't worry about that murderer
living next door to you.
I'll take care of him next,
you won't see him for long.

And when the day comes
when you have to move.
Don't worry, I'll find you again.

I am the darkness that purifies,
The light that corrupts.

I am the savior that takes lives,
The traitor that saves lives.
I am the soldier that defies,
The enemy that complies.
For I am not the enemy that takes,
Nor am I the ally that protects.
I am the good of the darkness,
The evil of the light.