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Raiven Everett Jun 2018
the kiss of death 
I wish it so easy to obtain
as many hear me wish to die 
reply 
then just do 

I render useless to such words 
as my story seems to defeat me 
the cries of pain 
fill my dreams 
despair speaks no end
as yet another domino falls to suicides place

ive tried seems to anger people 
im not sure why 
as I tell my story 
I see people cry 
yes ive tried suicide 
my notes for them hidden under my bookshelf
I tried 17 times
never seemed to hit the right vein

Just die echo in my mind
as many speak its melody
of past and now current 
when called out 
with yeah right 
I want to cry in a corner 
and stare at my scars 
both emotion and physical 


So yes 
Im scared alright 
and ive seen the kiss of death
so please stop 
the symphony of scars 
and yes
ive wished for the kiss of death
So just 
stop
Raiven Everett Jun 2018
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In these times
i believed so distant
to be non-existent
i dread life

i say i love him 
making him my life 
sounds so cliche 

i wish i could say such at this moment 
i was so sure
it feels so far 
that first time we smiled 
though many miles apart 
i believed him to be my life 
feeling his light so near 
as an embrace of my lover 

these times are the keys
to the locked part of my mind 
the ones i enter 
and see all the photos of my memories

the room of grief 
upon agony as my tears swell up
as everything i believed in comes to mind 
and crashing like the ocean tide back at me 
not to embrace me 
with such light anymore 

i feel like ive gone in a circle ive always seen
i want to trust 
yet i remain crying 
upon this room 
i want to be free 
but i cant move....

my eyes submerged into the photos of my memories
my father getting stabbed...
my grandfather dying 
seeing things others find nuts
being put through abuse of life 
and father 

i begin to wonder why am i alive
as the rooms shift 
a blank white wall
all too normal to belief 
yet all i can do stare

hospital 
the word that comes to mind 
taints my eyes as the white becomes
a blinding light 
and a hospital bed is all i see
staring down at my hands all i can see is my heros hand
cold 

insanity takes grasp once more 
as it shows me like a lost puppy 
the direction
as another who i believed in 
but died...
all i felt was fear as my wrists became scarred 
and a knife dug into my back

i lie there 
pondering if i wanted to truly die
and if i still do 
as reality comes back
among my sight restored
to the white ceiling of my room
i see blood splattered on my room 
and believe such to be true in due time

if this fears you 
brings to tears or anger 
my apologises 
as this is written as feelings of my reality

trying to understand me is to accept this 
to realize what i see is glitter and rainbows
to see i am scared
and not to disappear 
to love me is to be the guiding hand 
to be near me you must see 
i am much weaker 
than put out to be

if such is not alright my apologises
as my silence will be 
as a probability of fear 
my words become of distant memory 
as many 
disappear
with this i must say goodbye as the belief 
in my mind 
is to speak it 
but the walls block such 
as once be stated 
love me as me 
then further to understand me 
will be soon of greater truth
Raiven Everett Jun 2018
This isn't for anyone
As my words are my tears alone

Dreams flood my mind
All of these times 
I can't wait for this that
Or the other thing
While my mind speaks another dream 
I want to die
To feel the slice of a blade upon my neck 
As a necklace of blood lies there
Say I need help 
And all this
I try
It hasn't done any good
Beyond reversing to tear open old scars
I'm tired of living
In a world where a sight of the day 
Is another person's drama
It's like going to a theater 
And all that's playing is some 
Person Snapchat Instagram or personal story
I'm tired of not fitting in
Ever heard of the story of
The extrovert 
Turn introvert 
Well news flash we aren't all silent 
Dead do speak
Dreams tell our stories 
As people say what a shame 
And break us further 
I'm tired of being told I'm to blame 
That there's this tiny switch in my mind
That can turn it all off
That I'm broken and can be fixed 
See the abusive father who was is 
The least of my issues 
Which no one ever understands 
I say this and its like deer in the headlights 
I want people to be themselves
I'm tired of all these
Masks
Facades
Why is all I ask
So yes 
I'm broken in the eyes of humanity 
I'm torn to the shreds of a monster 
Those eyes are what form 
That blade of my dreams
That will finally slaughter me
Raiven Everett Jun 2018
The crashing of the waves 
the ultimate test of time
the soaking stance we stand by the shores
is up to us
will we listen to the oasis of the wind and sea
the earth and its sun stricken surface
stare up at the sky 
and think how amazing it truly is as over 7 billion 
people alone stare at the same sky
as the song of nature 
lifts them up and drifts them all to bed
the serpent of the sea approaches as the tides
becoming a demon of many people fears
as it washes man made structures into the sea 
to join Alantis once more
the Serpent of the sea is nothing of misery 
but a man made monster as it protects 
all the freedom we all choose as mankind to maintain 
its by our side 
as we choose it before our own greed 
and the tides will always play the serpents song
embracing the earth with its salty grasp
to reach out 
so please choose
do you rebuke it 
or 
treasure your time to it
Raiven Everett Jun 2018
A loving mother some state
a barrier of truth lies in these words 
the rest lie in the maintainer of that reality

Earth does not need us to survive 
but the opposing is not true 
as from birth 
we fall on the ground and stare at the stars 
always having a ground to fall upon
making it a bit easier to stand 
delicious foods growed upon the land 
lent to you by the life of the land
gives and gives until the land once given is corrupted 
and the love becomes painful 
answer me who will be blamed 
the other creatures as we build factories
upon the gravesite of earth

What land are we leaving for others 
to fall and entrust to 
Why must we be blinded 
by the need of material damage
listen closely 
will the voices of the trees surround you in time
or will we create a world
of volcano
and deserts 

Tell stories of trees 
instead of climbing them and mountains 
we dodge them
saying they are business's property
the amazon forest
the amazon desert all the same 
as we have amazon prime the only thing we care for
the nile 
the Missouri and all rivers turned to enemy 
as the grounds are polluted to toxicity

You will say you love them
but will you love the world that we left 
if you have to think of something 
think of the future of humanity nonetheless
will you let the world go to shambles
or finally see....

The evolution of humanity lies in mankind's hand
Raiven Everett Jun 2018
Seconds before release 
tears shed down peoples heads 
the grief of the world falls upon their shoulders 
distant memories brought forth by the shock
as if the tidal waves bring pain forth
from old joy 
As the reaper knocks upon the door so near 
a sudden darkness grabs hold 
as a flood of tears stains the memory of now 
im not here to say its all going to be alright 
im not here to say that i understand what you all go through 
rather to say that im here 
if you wish to have a shoulder to cry upon 
The seconds before death are filled with despair 
and fear 
of the knowing there is no more 
memories to be builr 
the creation of our own fortresses to be torn down 
smiles are vanquished as fast as the happiness once felt 
The love is so close as it encloses people to see
that their with them in all they do 
the flowers bloom on both sides of the fence 
stating that you may live in honor with them in mind 
or you can dig your own grave by the corpse's side
live in the love that will never vanish 
pass on the peace of mind that you will remember them 
before the seconds of how they died
Some speak of oasis after life 
or a cloud of happiness 
if so im sure they are having their time of peace and release 
times may be hard 
as shock is new 
but remember the ones you have physically 
and the ones who will always be with you spiritually and mentally
love and honor the ones gone 
by living life and smiling 
as you know their peace is to come as they sink into oasis after release 
those tears shed are all good and fair 
but smile because the one that is believed not to be there 
is watching from afar 
Live with the love of that who you did and do 
as release comes to peace for all those 
believe that of 
truth's smile

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