There’s a mystery in living with being apart without letting it separate the bond of your heart
Do I get used to seeing and breathing your air
then missing you most of the time you’re not there?
Is the end maybe near and we both can feel
what it’s like to not imagine, and fruitfully heal?

The distance is as large as the pain it causes
I sit in the half-dark and my heart, it pauses
I find myself wishing for things I have but have not
I’d explain this confusion, how much time have you got
How can one find routine in the unpredictable rhyme
Of a lover that leaves and comes back every time

You talk about me like I created the stars
That’s a hard compliment to take
But the truth is: it’s true
I’ve created them for you
And if my life was at stake
I would create even more
every night if you want me to
I’ll fill up the sky with glitter

I remember playing with it so well
though it’s been ages it feels familiar still
I can hear it whisper comforting words
„Stay a bit and wander in your childhood thoughts”

I hate how you can make my stomach turn
When you text and I could cry
I hate even more how much it all eases away
As soon as you are with me
Why do you make it so?
Why do you treat this ship like a rollercoaster?
You make me understand Kat’s poem at the end of 10 things I hate about you
Again and again, it’s you
And I hate that I love you so

I don’t wanna be you
I wanna see right through
what you’ve become

I don’t wanna be me
I wanna break free
Of this prison of fault

I don’t wanna be her
I wanna feel more
Than all this guilt

I don’t wanna be this
I don’t want to miss
What it’s like to be free

I don’t wanna be you
I wish it was true
That we get what we deserve

Its just a nice thought right?
And then it blooms
And suddenly you are in the middle of a field
Lying in the grass
Looking at the stars
Holding their hand

Thinking
I don’t belong here
What the hell am I doing here
But I don’t mind
It’s a beautiful dream
It’s a beautiful thought
It feels so real
They feel so near

Waking up
From this day dream
The one you’ve been working on for years
Building it up and expanding the world

Thinking
I wish our fantasy world was true,
But it’s good enough to share it with you.