I am a flower
bending in the wind
and rising again
I grow and I grow
I use the sunlight
But as you run along
What you don't see
I am right there
Right under your feet

Very fragile am I
And when you stand
I fall
Running over my friends
because we are not tall
I realize it must be true
I am not much
nothing more than a flower
that is stepped on
and thrown
I may be beautiful
but way deep down inside
Is a monster
that is trying to hide

Now I lay dead under you
an ugly flower
that can't be revived

Hate me
Don't love me
If  you know what is healthy
If you know what will keep you safe
Hate Me
Hate my personality
Hate my looks
Hate my hair
WHY DON'T YOU HATE ME
IT WILL BE EASIER IF YOU JUST HATE ME
THESE CUTS AREN'T FOR  YOUR LOVE

why is it so easy for everyone to hate me
Why is is hard for them to love me
but you find it hard to hate me
and it is easy for you to love me
Is this a game
Am I a toy
Or are your feelings real?

Oh what a lovely mess I have made
Blood on the walls
My heart full of shame
I thought it was worth it
I thought it could be happy, maybe
No...

I am in trouble
I am unsafe
I am stuck in a hole
I am insane
I am a wreck
I am a mess

A light
of oppertunity
shining through the hole
I reach up
but it laughs
I climb up
It laughs again
I try again and again
I grab it but I drops me

Then I find you
My light of forgiveness
My light of hope
My light of love
I grab and you don't let go
I am flying with the light
Holding it's hand

Thank
Thank you
Thank you for
Thank you for saving
Thank you for saving me

You helped me clean up my mess
with you my sanity came back
now I am normal
not only normal
but I am in love
<3 <3 <3

He is mine
I am his
You don't like it?
Well that's what is is!
Do me a favor
before you go to far,
mind your own ******* buisness
and we are who we are!

I like rocks
They are round
They are different
They don't fight all the time
Rocks are my best friends
Rocks keep  me sane
They won't laugh at you for a mistake
They are not perfect
They are from different places
Rocks can smile
They can resemble a rose
They can be fun
They can't run away
They can't criticize you
Rocks can't hurt your feelings
They are great listeners
People should be more like ricks

Like a running river
Like the sun in the sky
We may be different
But we are so alike
No one can see it
Because it is inside
But I love you
And I don't want to hide

I could only dream
that one day you will find
that you love me too
But love was blind
Then you asked
If I liked you
I said yes
and you liked me too

Little did I know
That what was inside
Was something amazing
And love would colide
I am not yours
And you are now mine
Please don't leave me
Don't run out of time
Because before you go
I want you to know
That I love you
and our love can grow

I am not an original
I am not normal
I am not the same
I am not...me
I have forgotten who I am
I have forgotten everything
I have been ripped from happiness
now i live hiding
away from my own
self doubt
but as long as i have my fake self
I will never be able to escape
I am stuck for ever...

Alone
Being alone
What if we are alone
in this universe?
What if we are alone
on a rock, drifting through
an endless black void that we know nothing about?
What if life as we know it is a lie?
We look for the meaning of life,
all these big unanswered questions,
but what if there really is no meaning of life?
What if we are the last of life as we know it?
Nothing no one can save us from
death and life as we know it.
Death is near and no one can stop it.
We desperately try to be the best,
we try to win everything for our own
selfish wants.
There is no reason for life.
When it comes down to it,
we are useless
and meaningless
and nothing means anything.
Just a bunch of sounds that don't mean anything.
If we are the only ones
If our lives are meaningless
If we are alone in the universe
Then why live?
If life is just going to be
hard to live
hard to continue
and hard to be happy during,
then why are we selfish enough
to live life
and destroy everything we touch.
We are not beneficial to the universe,
we are destroying it with one touch of a planet,
life as we know it means nothing.

An emotion with no feeling
A lost emotion
An emotion of protection
That keeps you safe
from everyone that tries to hurt you
An emotion that some won't feel
An emotion
I will never experience
An emotion that i have faked
An emotion without any emotion
You look happy but deep inside
You are sad
Depressed and alone
And no one can ever help you
You are lost in a million pieces
Only true, real happiness
can put you together
The lost emotion that will never return
And now that lost emotion took you too
Desperately looking for yourself
Looking for happiness
Looking for the emotion that will never return

It's him I like
It's him I want to be with
I see him everyday
I long to hear him say
I love you
I want to be with you

He is so nice
I have known him forever
But we only met this year
After 3 years
3 years of not seeing him
We meet again
And I love him again

Can he love me
The same way I love him
Does he like me too?
I have thought he did
But I know he doesn't
Will he please just talk to me
Tell me he does feel the same
Tell me he doesn't feel the same

I lay awake all night
thinking of him
Thinking of us
I can imagine his voice
saying he loves me
I can't see it happening
unless it is in my dreams

In my reflection
All I see
Is a lost girl
Trying to find her way
A lost girl that is constantly being reminded
Of everything bad in her life
A girl that is hiding behind a fantom
Nothing more than a girl
That is alone
And afraid

My reflection is full of hate
It hates me just as I hate it
My reflection tries to look good
My reflections tries to like me
I try to like my reflection
I wish my reflection would change
And be pretty for once

A broken mirror
Shattered into pieces
Glass everywere
I am happy now
I don't have to see my relfection
My lost girl
My ugly side
My lost hope to be...
Pretty

She was young
She was strong
Nothing could bring her down
She stood up for what she believed
She was beautiful
She was nice
She was loyal
She is gone

Now her voice fills the room
Trembling in fear
She is sad
She is alone
She can't see the light
She can't breathe
She believes that this is all
This is it
This is all life has to offer
Nothing could make her happy

Now she realizes
She is not sad anymore,
She is numb,
And somehow she knows,
That numb is much worse...

The ink swirls on my paper
Words that alone make no sense
But together they form a sentence
Like a baby they rely on others
Meaning things interpreted by the reader
Deep or shallow
Every little word has meaning

Ink swells on my paper
Swirling different colors
Greens, Yellows, Blues, and Purples
All different shades
Telling a story
How you feel is how you draw
Every creative mind
Every little mark

My pen
My friend
Writing what I direct it to
Causing all my fears to melt into color
All my daily and nightly worries
Melted into my pen
Melting as the fluent movements of my pen
Cause it to spread on my paper
Causing a beautiful picture of life

I can't breathe
I can't speak
I can't see
I can't
I just can't
It's getting harder
Harder to live
Harder to fight
The pain
It's getting worse
It's the worst pain
Anyone can feel
No, you can not see it
Because it lies deep within the human soul
The darkness swallows me
It swallows my inner human
My soul had holes
All i can hear is
Give up
Give up
Until i can feel the deep sadness
My happiness
its blinding me
i knew that i was no longer sad
because i had something way worse
I am now Numb...
And things will never change

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sometimes scilence
is the only thing keeping us
from going insane

I can't breathe
I can't breathe
I can't breathe
I won't breathe

I do it because I want attention
I say it because I want attention
I say I have things because all I want is attention
Thats what they all say

I don't have any problems
I am perfectly fine
Don't worrie about me
Because you said I just want attention

I hide
I keep it in the darkest corner
I don't want attention
I want help

You won't help me
Hello!?
Are you still there
Or did you leave me here alone

All I wanted was attention
You wouldn't help me
You wouldn't save me
And why?

Because you
Not because of me
Because you told everyone
I just wanted attention

And guess what?
I guess attention
I the one thing that I don't want
The one thing I will never get

It's dark, too dark
HELP! I'm falling
forever falling
can't you see me?
am I invisable?
can't you hear me?
am i muted?

My demons they haunt
I run and hide
but they still taunt
The darkness, it eats my soul away
Covering me like a blanket of regret and despair
crushing my lungs, i can breathe
over my mouth silencing my screams

Must i go on, must i fight
I need help
Drounding in darkness
on the outside in am ok
inside i am dying
there is nothing i can do but wait
I give up, i am alone

good or bad
a person is a person
happy or sad
emotion is emotion
poor or rich
greed is greed

nothing is good enough for one person
for once you have something you want more
more you want more you get
more you get more focused on getting more
less you spend time with family
the more lonely you get

sitting with all you ever want
all you ever need
you have succeded
one thing is not right
you have no one
no friends or family

anyone would **** for that to come
but you would **** for it to go
more depressed everyday
you learn how to tie a rope
standing on a chair you begin to cry
kick the chair and hang

you're found hanging by a rope
with a note that said
i'm sorry
with a drop of blood
and a knife beside the note
never to return to life you are gone

help me
I'm stuck in a hole
i can't escape my inner feelings
deeper and deeper i go
deeper and deeper i dig
a hole so deep that no one can save me

a rope
in my hole i see a rope fall
i grab on and start to climb
higher and higher i go
more and more risks
till i can see the top
till i can no longer climb
till i fall

at the bottom of my hole i weep
my tears fill my hole
i am buried in my hole
i can no longer breath
i can no longer feel hurt
but i can feel empty
lonly
usless
and afraid

now my hole is deeper than ever
i try to climb the rope on my own
i try to dig my way out
but i fall
but i get too tired
i can't go on any longer
i have no one to help

i am pleading
people ignore my screams for help
i am being attacked
the hole gets deeper the more they ignore
i can not be saved
i can not be protected

i am alone
i have no one
i have nothing
i can't escape
i am pleading
but i am ignored
there is only one way to escape my hole
and soon i am laying lifeless in my hole
and no longer will my hole get deeper

A dark abyss
never safe inside
the demons watch from afar
i try to run but they return to haunt me
and try to take over
nothing and no one is safe
for what lies inside is a freak that is out to get me
causing my friends to run and my family to hide
making me useless and lonely again
and again
and again...
until i give in and they take over
next thing i know i am in the dark abyss
and no one cares...