I want to smile
But I'm not happy
But I'm not like the others
I haven't found my fake smile
Because I'm not fake like the other girls
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­Why do I not wear makeup but the other girls do?
It's because I don't think I need it
Nor do I want it
I'm not secretly insecure like the other girls
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While they gossip about me in corners
I don't like to talk bad about them
If I do they will hear
And they will start rumors about me
Untill I suddenly dissappear
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I don't get other girls
Why they curl their hair around their fingers
Why they always seem to get dates
Why I'm the one sitting alone
Being talked about
Called ugly, a nerd, lonely
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I start to act like the other girls
And wear makeup and pretty clothes
Curl my hair around my finger and get dates
But I hate it
But I don't care that I hate it
I don't care I'm not happy
I never was happy
But at least now I'm accepted
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Why am I only accepted now?

Not everday a good guy appears
And you know from the start
What kind of guy he is
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They don't break a girls heart for fun
They cherish every moment with you
So I like them better
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They don't call girls hoes
They will call a girl perfect
Even if you aren't theirs
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They don't take girls for granted
Because it's not everyday girls talk to them
It's not everyday a girl hangs out with them
And it's not everday they have the chance to fall in love
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So never take him for granted
Love him with all your heart
Because it's not everday
You find a good guy like that one

I build my life up with colorful legos
I take a break and admire my work
Bright, beautiful colors
All stacked up
Then someone comes along and kicks my legos
Bright, beautiful colors
All scattered across the floor
I pick up my legos and build again, and again, and again
I'm so tired but I don't stop
I don't take breaks so no one can knock my legos down
I tell myself keep going
Yet someone still comes and kicks down my legos
But this time I don't fix it, I am too tired
And I realize, that no matter how many times I rebuild
No matter how beautiful the legos are
Someone will come knock down my life
Untill I die
Do I have to continue building?

I want to glue my eyes shut
So I can't see anymore evil
I want to glue my ears shut
So I can't hear insults thrown at me
I want to glue my mouth shut
So I can trap the words about to escape my mouth
I want to put glue around my heart
So I can stop these emotions

I lie awake in the darkness
And I run to turn on the light
The darkness won't swallow me tonight
The demons watch me from the hallway
Trying to close in
Trying to take over me
I try to run
But in this world called Earth
No one is safe
Inside me are monsters
Waiting for my breaking point
So they can control me
Causing my friends to run and my family to hide
Untill I am lonely and sad again
And I hurt myself again
And again
And again
Untill one last breath
And the pain is gone

My heart is a dog
Loyal to whoever it loves
Loyal to you
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My heart is a butterfly
Fluttering around when someone is around
When you are around
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My heart is a mixing ***
Contains so many different emotions
So many emotions about you
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My brain can't decide for my heart
Yet this time I want it to
I want to know if I like you