I wish I could have brought you joy
but instead I've brought you grief
And broke your heart with promises
that were just beyond my reach

I wish I could take back those words
which caused you so much pain
And replaced them with the memories
where only love remains

I wish I could make dreams come true
so you could wish on every star
And embrace the magic on the night
you hold within your arms

I wish I could have taken time
to wipe away your tears
And surround your heart with happiness
to alleviate your fears

I wish I could have been the one
who fulfilled your fantasies
And been the one to encourage you
to follow all your dreams

I wish I could have listened more
with patience in my heart
And held you closer to my side
as we both lay in the dark

I wish I could have thought of this
when at first you got with me
Before I broke your heart with promises
that were just beyond my reach

Time is passing so slowly.....  



Facing the future armed with uncertainty,

I pray the absence of normality makes everyday the same.

No longer to deny my mistakes,

I know where to place the blame.



So I try to make the best of this situation,

stripped of all my dignity,

still I maintain my frustration deep within my mind.

Behind these bars I am able to keep my sanity.  



For however long this must be,

my time will be spent focusing on tomorrow...

Forgetting about yesterday....

while remembering to smile today.



Please be gentle..... This was written back in 1992...while in jail facing a 50 year sentence. .. One of the first written.

Today began as many do
a waste of precious breath
Have I the strength to see it through
or is there any left

These struggles seem to multiply
within each passing day
As hope and dreams turn into lies
my faith slips far away

What do I do to gain the peace
that somehow I can't find
Will then these demons finally cease
and restore this shattered mind

I need to know what happens next
for all I know is pain
should I just end this misery
before I go insane

Can anybody save me from
these ghosts within my head
Since today began as many do
a waste of time and breath