I've tried to fight the pain inside
but nothing seems to work
So today will be my final day
the end to all this hurt

I can't escape this misery
or hide the way I feel
So Death is all that's left for me
the only thing that's real

Is there anyone who hears my cries
or are they silent shouts
Does anybody see my pain
or know what its about

Will Death relieve this tortured soul
and set my spirit free
Or will I be a shadow of
the man I use to be

There's no more time to truly tell
since nothing seemed to work
So today will be my final day
the end to all this hurt

When I die don't mourn for me
for God has called me home
To walk with Him and talk with Him
along the streets of gold

When thoughts of me DO cross your mind
rejoice for now I'm free
To walk along the pure white sand
beside the crystal sea

When I look down from up above
I hope to see you smile
Remember that we'll be apart
for just a little while

I'll wait for you at Heaven's door
with arms opened wide
To welcome you to paradise
and all that waits inside

Silence echoes through my mind
as rage consumes my heart
With self-control beyond my reach
I slowly fall apart

I fight the demons in my head
but darkness takes control
The searing heat of nothingness
burns deep within my soul

But nothing seems to remedy
all the pain I feel inside
So all that I can think of are
these thoughts of suicide

My life has faded far away
so far beyond my grasp
So deep is my despair I don't know
how long I can last

Oftentimes I've thought about
just who would mourn my death
If anyone would even care
that I've drawn my final breath

Would anyone remember me
or cry because I've passed
So deep is my despair I know
there's no way I can last

I never will forget the day
my world came crashing down
It happened out on highway 6
just right outside of town

My wife and I were headed home
after dinner and a show
When a truck who crossed the center line
gave me nowhere else to go

When I hit the ditch doing 65
all I heard was Tammy scream
Everything around me slowed
like I'd stepped into a dream

We must have rolled at least 3 times
though I'm sure that it was more
Then I asked my wife if she was hurt
as I opened up my door

If she answered me I couldn't hear
for the ringing in my head
So I came around to check on her
and realized she was dead

It'll be a year tomorrow
when my life came to an end
I not only lost my wife that day
but also my best friend

But tonight we'll be as one again
of this I have no doubt
As I place her picture on my chest
and the barrel in my mouth

My final thoughts upon this earth
were of the only love I found
As I never could get passed the day
my world came crashing down

The whispered voice of yesterday
can wake tomorrow's dreams
Since all it takes is one true heart
who truly will believe

For nothing is impossible
with faith inside your heart
And inner strength through peacefulness
is one place you should start

Though hearts are where the dreams may live
their born within the mind
To follow them would bring us all
to a better place in time

Though some think dreams are foolish
they fail to see the light
My own beliefs are clear to see
as day is from the night

I hope you live your dreams each day
no matter what they are
Just plant your feet on solid ground
but reach for every star

For without dreams what do we have
but a world of in between
Cause the whispered voice of yesterday
can wake tomorrow's dreams

The end has come for me today

so I must say good-bye

It may be hard to understand

but I trust that you will try



My heart's so filled with emptiness

controlled by misery

I've finally seen that what I am

was never meant to be



The tears I've cried so recently

are for pain nobody knows

I just can't take it anymore

it's time for me to go



Is life suppose to be this way

with thoughts of suicide

Or has my life become a loss

with no one to confide



Does anybody understand

the pain that fills my heart

Or understand that all of this

is tearing me apart



Concealment isn't optional

for no one seems to care

I hide within my shattered thoughts

while drowning in despair



My heart has grown so heavy

and still I don't know why

The end has come for me today

now I must say good-bye

Last night I dreamed of muted sounds
where echoes have no end
Which came from sorrows people face
with hearts that never mend

They follow down the path that leads
through shadows of despair
Beyond the stream of tears they've cried
to the path that leads nowhere

Where the sobs are only memories
that haunt without a word
And bring to life the distant past
of voices never heard

But in the forest of the lost
are trees of lonesome pain
Which mark the passing of the ones
who've ever loved in vain

To escape you must remember
that Death's your only friend
From all the sorrow's people face
with hearts that never mend