What was it that brought about that day, playing in the road though I didn't have much to say,

Bringing you the teddy bear where i got my first kiss though be on the check, soon you were free and you texts me more and more the heck?

I couldn't believe someone was taking interest me me, interest in this mess a mess all see,

We laughed and chuckled and text every day all day pretty much, until you wanted words from me slender if what I could do to you with my still nervous touch,

Do you remember how much you made me shake, me made me tremble in fear but then kiss me and know you caused such a quake,

With your beautiful eyes and your infectious laugh, it was getting harder and harder to leave us apart,
Till you wanted me living with you no doubt, you had me forever with what felt me horse and my cart,

I know things arent easy, and we've been through alot, I'll sweep it under the table id I had a nother shot,

We could build on our love and make it better you see, knowing now more things to help us forsee, I miss your bites and you picking my spots, I miss you jumping at me and setting off the dogs,

I want you to see we can build again, just give me the chance even if small and slim, watch as I turn all worship to you? What would it take me give up friendships to?

We had so much and so much to give, now I feel I'm over the edge over the edge and blind I just want my baby and my babies to be happy.

When you jumped on me and hurt my groin to know we would have our own, you gave me something and someone could never give, look at her and see me and see us, wouldn't you give,?

How can I lose the one who freed the self doubt and worry then then still took over me, to have one love and see it dim, through words of non wisdom the wrong words for him,

I'll never forgot the phone to the Irish man about the size of the phone, or when you filmed me and the dogs twisted up alone

Walking into the Disney store and seeing you light up, because the world you really love was there around and above, just like did in fpi when I got so anxious then caused to cry just because someone bumped into me looking at my love

Spiderman we'll say and it won't be as fun because no one knows are laugh with meaning they know nothing,, none.
The trips with the girls and seeing them glow, walking into stores they hadn't yet know, ourntripsnlast forever my memory now done.

You took me to see the one show above all and you know just how much in the scences I would see, with you there would never be somewhere i couldn't defy gravity.

Things are dead now my soul came untwind it brings me to tears because I was so unkind, I have all but nothing but the smallest of hope that one day as I wait you'll knock or there'll be a note, but this is just something I dream in my mind.

You had me at hello and I lost it I know

To love what was lost

Have you ever wondered why things get so dark, every thought diminished and feeling left else were.
Where feelings we think we have are just thoughts and the feelings we really have, well they're just sad and keep us there.
What do you do when you finally feel and can finally show to one person how much they are meaning to you?
What do you do when they say they are over you and if kills every sense of who you are, you feel it to the core, but what? What do you do?
Do I stand and fight for someone that continues to want to walk away from me,
Or do I push on and fight those demons and force my way to set myself free.
Do you ever wonder much one person hates themselves to the point the outside looks like the inside, a cut up mess for all to see.
I'm ashamed of what I did and who I was but that person has gone, emotion replaced normal logical thought, how I can message or talk.
But all I seem to get are blunt short answers that aren't interested in and you just walk.
I show shame and fear every day for everyone to see, except when you are with me I feel that strength.
We both know we have it in us we both know we know, we are meant to go the distance no matter the length.
You know how to hurt me and I know you but I know more how to make you happy and wish I could show it.
But instead every voice was right it told me I was pathetic and now I'm lost for even wit.
I have to hug pillows every night to trick myself that you are with me not wake up and see you brushing your hair.
I talk and you talk except the you wasn't there, I walk into the living room you were sitting in that chair right there.
My darkness is spirals and it doesn't go up towards any light, no one sees me smile and no one sees my distant stare, no one do they.
No one sees that when you message I smile forms sec and knowing I was a thought for a second and then it just lay.
I die every moment you would rather any other them then me, I can offer you nothing in the way of new, only my feelings that flood on through.
I am here and im under water but sadly I'm not breathing fine, no one can save me there was only you.
So when I say my darkness I mean no one else sees maybe not even you, no one feels this sick or pain that I will tear up just the thought, just knowing there is no longer a me but there is always a you.