I want to wake up,
To the warm breath of sunlight
I want to wake up,
Without these chills in my bones
I want to wake up,
A little worried, but not afraid
I want to wake up,
To hands full of hope, not weariness
I want to wake up,
Without yesterday's restrain
I want to wake up,
Cheery and unscarred,
To the hands that showed me love,
The hands that promised me forever.
I want to wake up....
But if I don't,
I want to leave weightless,
With the colours of the earth cast upon my body
As you remember me like I was,
Even if it had been for a moment...
"Happy"

Memories;
They are like scars we carry with us forever.
Tattoos that were somehow drawn in permanent ink.
Expectations and dreams burnt to our souls that leave us charred.
How often did they say, "Let it go?"
Well, I never saw myself letting it go,
Not the memory of the two of us.
Not the movie that played over in my heart for ages.
Reality is a dropped atomic bomb,
It's nothing personal, I totally know what is real.
But today, I woke up in a lagoon,
Where everything I touched was washed away.
And here I lay, touching everything I ever replayed.
Like a time cleanser, I'll wake up afresh
And maybe, just maybe, these memories I held like scars
Would wash away and never exist again.

You said you loved me,
I said it back.
But I'm broken and that was an honest fact.
You said we were all broken and needed love to fix us.
I laughed but I thought you understood.

I'm at the edge of the riverbank,
With memories floating in the wind.
And I'm trying to remember the one time you truly held on.
You were angry cause I wasn't always weak, you were mad cause I wasn't always scared.
You said I was too strong to be loved, but the truth is you were too scared to push.

You said we'd fix it together but you only tried to break me further.
I've only come this far cause I stopped being weak.
But that's the thing about being strong, no one ever asks if you're okay.
You just decided I was fine, but what is love,if I can't be redefined?

I'm standing at the edge of the riverbank, ready to take one last leap.
Away from a world that is only a drowning deep.
But when I rise, I'll rise like the dawn, a promise that says I can be loved.
I'll be stronger and braver,
but better in order to keep going.
And all the hurt I felt when you walked away, scorching me with those words "you can't be loved."
Everything will be washed away  with the ocean's salt.
And just like that, you will be but a past of the girl I left behind.
A past of the broken,unfixable me.