UNTIL THEN

Down, unable to get up,
cut deep makes me weep
drowning in my own pains
makes me feel so drained
like I am going insane ,
I have nothing to give
all I can do is to forgive
I don't know how
I'm going to make my way out
every time I try to be nice
I become broken like ice,
I made myself move along
that old cold bridge
I feel the chains heavy on me
darkness and wet
is where I was left for dead  ,
prisoner in darken dreams
Oh, how this place
makes me scream
I feel locked away
while he holds the key,
inside my mind is a world of pain
memories that will make one
go into a nightmare
when I cry
no one cares to dry my eyes
this is hard times
that plays on my mind,
I can't afford to give up now
I gone this far like a star
with a broken heart
lost ,cut without a wish
things are getting tight
this is so unbelievable,
I got to find my way out
I need to be able to feel passion
Love and not overthink  
I need to breath and set my heart free
until then
I will stay cold numb .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Lonely Highway

Highway run for a ride of faith
Into the midnight moon is you
My God I seek ,
I hold on to my faith  
Wheels go round and round  
You're on my mind all the way
Restless my hearts to you  
I sleep alone just to know you  
Are watching over me ,
Sending all my love along to you  
In my prays I even cry upon your
Devin name Jehovah ,
They say that the road is dark and  
So lonely and I must say they are
Right but I have you to talk to  
I hold on to my faith in you ,
Right down the line it's been you and me  
Oh Jehovah my God thank you for loving me
You stand by me day and night
I'm forever yours faithfully  
There is no other love like yours  
You are my everything  
I will always call out your name  
Jehovah is my love for life  
My God , my friend to the very end .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

If I could make a dwelling place
in your heart, I would
but all I could find is the rain of yesterdays;
You had lost your way
So now that dwelling place
has no room for love
the happiest days are long gone
the dark hours had come to you?
like a wild storm
Your name is marked in the dark
you have a way to bring on pains
you have power of the dark side
where love could never be
What made you like this ?
I know if anyone stands to close
you would make a lot of smoke
I can feel the essence of your power
but it’s not the kind I was looking for
you was once a true prince
and I was your queen
but now it’s all in dreams
things are never what they seem .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1992
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Being alone
isn't a bad thing
it’s just a new starting point
in my life
just to find my own strength.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1986

The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
The Queen Of Darken Dreams

KNOWLEDGE
To face all my fears
standing never alone
to face a darken world
to hold on to knowledge
that shines a like
in an old world
that could never hold
this knowledge

Poetic Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
The Queen Of Darken Dreams

MY OWN MISERY

Oh, how you love to see me weep
in so much pain;
you tell me you love the rain
it gives you so much strength
by living off my misery.
when my life is going right
you would do whatever it takes
to see my heart break,
you said the day will come
when someone will put my heart on the run
you call that fun;
I never thought it would be
my own child that would cut me deep,
now look at me I can no longer sleep
or eat because all I do is weep,
soon comes the fear
that hangs near;
Oh, how I truly feel the emptiness
of all those years, I gave my whole life
to the child, I hold dear;
left me in tears,
forgiveness will always be in my heart
even while I’m bleed out like ink
for the whole world to see me broken
but again, this would be my haters token,
where is the respect?
I am home alone
asking myself what is it I was doing wrong
why am I losing everything I love?
my child is now so grown up,
I had never lived a life for myself
all those negative feelings of loneliness
came rushing in like a wildfire of true
agony of bleeding pains
the cuts are so deep
I felt I could no longer breath
I even thought for a moment
my heart stop beating,
all those memories of my life
beat upon my me until I was broken
deeper than life ever could hand me,
this pain is stripping, taking everything
from me;
drain ever part of goodness from me
leaving me powerless
while I hear the evil ones
laughing at my pains
hoping for rain to come my way to stay,
I have no strength left in me,
this pain of letting go of what I truly love
Is really bringing me down to my knees
begging God to help me,
because this pain I feel
is striping me from all that I had ever live for.
Within the hours my child
walked back in the door
and that was the end of the war.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

CHILDHOOD DREAM

I have secretly left you a note
upon your bed side;
but only in dreams you could only see
what it is I have written
in a place of the forbidden,
this is how we meet
you came into my life while I sleep,
you seemed so nice and very sweet,
You’re my child hood dream,
I had left you some time ago
I want to say sorry,
But, I must ask
how did you make your way back?
into my mind another time.
I never understood that
I thought you suppose to stay in the past,
I see your writing on my page  
where others could read
what you are wanting to say to me,
but, you are starting to get mean
and yet a little scarier;
when you write about me
you had taken all my words
I wanted to say right out of my mouth,
You would write me to tell me
You wanted so badly to be kiss me,
But I must say;
Get off my page
Because I don’t feel the same way
You are only something from a darken past
A childhood dream
that always made me scream,
It’s so funny what words can do,
to make me feel so ill about you,
I could never love you or want too.
I felt I known you all my life,
maybe I did;
But only in my dreams you see,
So, what does all this mean
for you and me?
again, how could this ever be?
If we were only a childhood dream.
I started to feel overwhelmed by you,
If you are only someone of dreams,
Every time I sleep,
Your eyes are looking back into mine
It’s like I could read an ancient story;
I had to take a deep breath
and walk away from all of this,
Your starting to mess with my head,
I’m starting to feel old wounds
of another time;
something doesn’t feel right
this left me so confused
how could all of this be if your only
a childhood dream?

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery