Worring all night cant let me survive
All the dark past eating me from inside
Cant share with anyone only choice is to cry
Cause all things looks so haze everyone left me in despair
Became quite feeble want to free bird
Cant free myself from this demon
Maybe i am bad so people left me alone
Or became dead serious for people to talk
Only thing i need to free myself all the guilt
No power left to resist want to fight back
With a novice hand only problem is fear to loose all courage seems to loose
Want to talk only choice is isolation
Cant find any solution
Need a shoulder to cry but left with rejection
Seen people changing faster than chamelion
Become alienated feels like i aint be good again fear of failure hitting like a train
Feels like life is stopped
Feels like always be alone
Trusting can be painfull
Tears will break u
Time will remold

So much to say
Too many words to lay
Afraid to say can be used against
Much afraid to put my insecurities in plate to become bate
Silence only way
Playing game cant control
Becoming weak loosing hopes
If cant be a player better be a spectator
Look game through different perspective
false hopes makes rage hop
Cant blame any though
Cant demand fruit from seed i never sow
Want to be free but dont want struggle
So afraid to face consecuences
If u bleed dont blame others
Whatever u sow so shall u reep is a proverb
Dont waste tears ,people dont care
Pretend to caretaker and treat like intruder
Not so fair!!
Making false promises of staying
When they cant for long
Making me *******