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Olivia May 12
Sometimes I still feel sick
Like I'm right back where I was
Where I cried myself to steep
Constant urges
That one thought that turned to many
The visions of past times
That vision of me still here
Buried deep so I forget
The thing is you don’t forget
It will forever be a part of me
The old immediate coping skill
Hurt or die
It will make you feel better
The pain stops I said
Those thoughts were never true
The brain hitting panic mode
Sad thing is it worked
Only for a moment though
After you were scared
Felt the regret, guilt and anger
Now you know better
Though it still comes back
That urge for control
Something you can fix
They say it’s not worth it
We all know
But the pain felt good
They didn’t see
But I know today
This isn’t me
Olivia May 11
You were never broken
Unfixable
A failure
Too far gone
helpless
You just needed help
help see the light
The hope you didn’t know was real
It was there all along
tiny bits and pieces
While the world isn't kind
Only limited love
You will find hope
A better life
You Make it
you can change it
No change without change
Can’t wait for it to show
Change is hard.
But 100% worth it
Remember, you aren’t broken
Just needed to speak up
Olivia May 7
The train keeps moving

Won’t stop if you’re late

The conductor won’t apologize

Say sorry for missing you

The passengers won’t help you

You seem to be on your own

You try your best not to be late

Some days you just can’t help it

There’s too much on your plate

The plate keeps filling, almost toppling over

You’ve missed your train again

The train keeps moving

-OliviA
Olivia Mar 12
Sometimes I wonder why I’m okay
Why the sadness didn’t stay
The sadness used to last forever
Now it mostly stays away
I had to learn to push it away
Learning something new every day
The feelings I once held so tight
Almost vanished from plain sight
Today I accept those big emotions
Accept and push away
So for now I’m happy I’m ok
Olivia Mar 11
There’s a raging war
Not quite an average war
The war against myself
There are tears
There are words
There are thoughts
They are not simple
It seems like a dilemma
I don’t think I’ll win she says
She says it’s not worth the pain
There’s a small voice in the back
A voice that trusts and believes
She says you’ve got this
It gets better they say
It gets easier along the way
With the right skills it may work
I may win the war
The words get quieter
The tears lighter
If only I knew what I could do
Olivia Mar 11
There was a time where all hope was lost
A time of nothingness and no light
It was a time no one wanted to see
IT seemed impossible to fix
No magic or tricks
The brain is easily deceived
It tells us we’re not good
It can be good though
There was a turn around
The light flickered
It got brighter
It started slow and began to grow
The light glowed brighter
The smile grew brighter
The brain wasn’t tricked
It started working
The work she’d put in
It started to shine
A once impossible force began to stop
It started to grow
The expressions and talks were bigger
The pain grew smaller
It faded away
She knew how to manage
She knew how to stop it
It wasn’t always perfect
There was a way
She knew she was capable
She knew she could
It wasn’t impossible
The change had happened
Olivia Mar 10
I have scars
They’re all over my body
Some say they tell a story
Mine tell nightmares
Those scars kept me alive
Kept me breathing when I thought I couldn’t
Those scars are reminders of the dark
But they also show me how far I’ve come
No longer the person I used to be
I don’t yearn for those scars
I beat the old me
She is gone
I’m alive and breathing
I’m finally free
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