last night i slit my wrists
seems im stuck in the negatives
so out of luck for a better life
only kinda thing i can bet
is this knife in my chest before bed
i dont even get whats said
all i hear is kid dont do this yet
think about the different sedatives
you can do all these medicines
im like leave me to my mind
let me breathe head is weak
your takin up my oxygen
im hopin to pass time
brought in a blackout
nothin but the hot blade
stingin in my throat
goodbye

never knowin what service was the best  
always tearing at my chest
demons never resting from this quest
it upsets me to be tested by the devil
and his army of complexion
its definite id rather death
then to be seen as someone
who cant stretch out a hand
and contest like this man lets
god and his ****** pests
always want fraud from a lambs vest
famous rappers got fan checks
makin me look upset and i cant rest
so i build the feat with concealed release
talkin matrix never made it in them seas
im always kickin with the bassist
and he breaks it like a beast
tension in the room
it always seems

every day they take
apart of me like tokens
a peice of gold for them
to fit inside the slot
ive been broken since the day
they placed me in this spot
ive always
been beside my god
but im thinkin i might hope
for another guide
cause this light seems lost
darkness all i got
every day jotting black
till im bleeding out a shop
where you buy ghastful shots
drinkin up the spirit slop
thinkin i might hear alot
but really their all here
to stop my heart
and i fear that
i wont meet jesus
that ill be left
an understatement
dead just by
the beatings in the dark

a surprise from my heart
its a jump start
a sin living art
dont know if im alive
or weather im farce
but in this creation
of lethargic sensations
tiring as it may be
well always pick up our feet
and move forward
through this crashing of cars