Talkin to angel
Hello
Hello  are you here
I really need your ear
I'm here
What is it you wanna hear
I need you
I need your help to fight my fears
I'm here dont be afraid to me all your fears
I'm sad
I'm lonely
I'm tired
I'm alone
I'm ugly
I'm....
Shh my child you are not all of those
I see
Beauty
Happiness
Poetry
Love
Caring
Well why do people not see that
Only one who truthy care will see
You are not made for everyone my dear
Cry if you need to
Sleep if you need to
Hide if you need to
But never lose yourself over fools
Feel better my dear tomorrow is coming and no more fears.

The moon is full

The moon follows you just like stalkers do

When the moon is full alot of things start to go all wacky

Like cats

When the moon is full cats are running around

Like dogs

When the moon is full dogs start barking and howling

Like bugs

When the moon is full the bugs start buzzing n flying around filling the sky full

Like people

When the moon is full people do things they never do

So once in awhile if you like it blame it on the full moon

Run with me in the woods
Run with a friend
Run by me
Run once u have the courage to
Run a bit
Run for time
Run for pleasure
Run for high
Run in the name of love
Run the bar
Run away
Run for a break today
Run as far as you  can go
Just ******* run .

Sit
Lay
Sit
Lay
Look at the clock the hands go around
Thinking of everything that goes on
Why I am not laying with you
Why I am thinking of you
Why I am dreaming of you
Why why why
I dont have the answer only you do
I listen to your words
I repeat them in my head
I listen to songs remind me
I sing then to make me feel good
I want to scream
But it wont help
Take as I am
Little ****** up
Little insane
Little crazy
My soul keeps asking me
What should I say when I don't know what to say
Come with me and walk through the woods where we can lay a d up at the same moon and stars

Random
Thunderstorms inside my head
Sunny days a head
Water running down my cheek
Faking a smile to fool the freaks
Pains in memories
Moments go on
Loving peace
Feeling down
Reading thoughts
Crazy mind
Emotional state
Engery flowing
Connected soul rising
Distance apart
Guitly thoughts
Happy poem's
Life parts
Feathers laying
Wind blowing
Caring ears
Heart so near
Writing time
Hold so dear
Drink to that my dear
Stand alone
Sleep tight
Laughing so bright
Come on just stay the night
Mind racing
Good night.

I'll always remember the good times we had together the things we did and said.
I thank you for loving me
I thank you for caring for me
I thank you for being there for me
I know in death you will do the same
This isn't a good bye its a I'll see you again when its time
I love you and  no one will ever take your place.
I love you I miss you .

inside my head i feel
happy
sad
glad
mad
bad
empty
hurt
tears
pain
lost
gone
scared
fear
fight
time
hope
love
life
death
sleep
awake
thoughts
sometimes i dont like whats inside my head

Hurt
As I lay here
I wonder why
I wonder how
I wonder how long
I wonder how much more
I wonder nothing
I feel it
I see  it
I dont want it
But it always follows me like a stalker on full moonlight night
Time doesn't let it heal
Times doesnt know how just let's it stay
Crying seems to help but what are you  crying for
Love?

Shy guy

Hinding behide a smile
**** eyes
Lips taste amazing
Shy half the time
Cute and smart
Foolish at times
Doesnt know what to say
Doesnt know what to think
Doesnt know what to do
Wants to but doesn't
Nervous
Girls  have his attention
But one is all he needs
Take billions in time
Some times wonders why
Wants to run and hide
Shy guy hi.

I miss your laugh
I miss your voice
I miss your smell
I miss you smile
I miss your heart
I miss holding your hand
I miss you so much
I wish you were here like your suppose to be
Sometimes I feel like your still here and that makes me happy whenever I feel like crying I think of you and I feel all right again

im ugly
im worthless
im nothing
i cry
i cut
i wish to feel different
i feel alone
not begging for attention
sleepless nights
the world is ****** place
over thinking
stay?

Tina
I'm pretty         I'm fat
I'm happy         I'm sad
I'm gone         I'm crying
I'm good             I'm bad
I'm tired         i dont sleep
I'm pain            I'm cutting
I'm upset        I'm not around
I care                  i dont
I'm crazy          I'm crazy
I'm pink             I'm purple
I'm glad             I'm mad
I walk                    I run
I stay                   I leave
I'm depression   im diabetic
I make no ******* sense.

stay go stay go stay go
go now go now go now
stop stop stop
think think think
think think think
walk walk walk
walk walk walk
slow slow slow
faster faster faster
stop stop stop
sit down sit down sit down
pick up the phone pick up the phone pick up the phone
dial the number dial the number dial the number
hang up hang up hang up
think think think
think think think
get up get up get up
walk walk walk
slow slow slow
now now now
run run run
so fast so fast so fast
no one can see no one can see no one can see
now now now
turn turn turn
down down down
the the the
road road road
stop stop stop
go go go
to to to
the the the
tunnel tunnel tunnel
have a seat have a seat  have a seat
now now now
breathe breathe breathe
dont dont dont
cut cut cut
think think think
thin think think
close your eyes close your eyes close your eyes
now now now
sleep sleep sleep
when when when
you you you
wake up wake up wake up
everything everything everything
will will will
be be be
all all all
right right right

feeling sad         i looking for happiness
feeling lonely     looking for you
feeling pain       i want it to be gone
feeling tired      i want to sleep
feeling  nothing    i want to feel
holding pen in hand
paper on the counter
writing until i can't think or become numb
not all makes sense
i cant hide what i feel
no matter how much i try
i over think
i under think
crying from time to time
hiding away
never to been seen
i want it all
piece by piece
holding on

I'm happy.
I'm sad
I'm glad
I'm mad
Im confused
I'm laughing
I'm lost
I'm found
I'm loved
I'm hated
I'm pain
I'm scars
I'm abuse
I'm beaten
I walk
I sit
I lay
I stand
I cry
I dont
I sleep
I dont
I feel like I have no one
But yet I  do .

Walking alone on dark road
Hearing wind blowing
Hearing silence
Then a car drives by
It stop and a man grabs you
Now what
Your fighting for you life
Your all beaten up
Dont know if your make it
Dont know if he let you  go
Times go by
Days go by
Then you espace
You run and run
You come up to long ***** road
You see a house up a head
Go there for help
Knock on the door
Tell what happens
Hes caught and your free
But are you really
You seek help
Now you  feel like crying and dying
Nightmares from time to time
Family friends near by
Helping you to stay clean
Maybe one day she will be fine.

Summer
Here comes children playing
Families camping
Summer
Families going on vacations
Here comes the swimming
Here comes the beach days
Summer
All wild life is free
Beautiful pictures
Summer
I don’t want it to end
Why must we have shorter summers
Summer
Here comes bbq
Here comes longer days
Sun beating off the waters
Stars out
Summer
Moon is full
Oh how I don’t want summer to end

Poem by me

Hold on
Dont go
Y no one cares anyways
Yes some do
Who
If they do they dont say
I just wanna go
Jump of that stupid bridge
Dont ur loved
Why
I feeling coming on
Hold on
No dont wanna
Stop it
No
Yes
Think
Think lil more
No
Leave me alone
In gonna do it
Do what
Jump.

Inside my head a lot of things are going on why i am alive, why i'm not dead
Why do people ta;l about me like they know me when they dont
Why do i feel depressed
Why do i feel suicidal
Why do i feel lonely and loved so many things run through my head
I'm here for some reason just don't know what it is

sleepless nights

Feeling tired
Falling a sleep
Thinking
Crying
Finally a sleep
Wake up
Lay back down
Holding my dream so tight
Finally a sleep again
Wake up
Stay awake
Sleeping again
Wake up
These are the nights I deal with
These are my nights

im old
but young
kids i have
but none with me
people lie to over up their *******
lies lies lies
loved ones gone
to soon no time to retry
cry cry cry
have friends but feel alone
have family but feel alone
sad sad sad
been abused
been *****
been lied to my men
depression kicks in
i try to feel alive but i wanna do is died
sleeping all the time wishing time would go by
drink
smoke ****
i use to cut to feel alive
days go without talking
fat
pretty
big thighs
music
movies,
tv
walking
pink
thoughts
afraid of highest
poor
italian
so here why don't you tell them  something they don't know about me

what does one say ?
what does one do ?
what does one feel ?
what does one think?
what does this all mean?
when one can say
when one can do
when one can feel
when one can think
this means one is whole
i think not
one does not feel an think alike one can only imagine
what now you say
i say doesn't matter one will listen?
you can ask
i think if you do then the world will and you have peace will overcome

36 age
italian fame
brown eye girl
holding on
standing still
tattoo for each of how i feel
24 in all
girly time
breaking point
falling down wanted to be seen
crossing path in strange lands

LIFE
YOUR BORN
MEET YOUR FAMILY
BECOME FRIENDS
TO HAVE CHILDREN
WORK FOR MONEY
LOVE MARRIAGE
FEEL HEARTACHE
SAD SOMETIMES
ALWAYS HAPPY
STRUGGLE TO HATE
DEATH IN TIME

U have such a pretty face n wonderful smile n ok with ur body figure why do u feel so out of place my guardian angel look after she said

i sit and think of something to say
i stand and think of something to say
i walk and think of something to say
i lay down and think of something to say
i talk and of something to say
you make me nervous
you make me laugh
you make me feel happy even if its for one sec
you look my way
you walk my way
you talk my way
but yet you don't come my way

I m not normal so what
I am crazy so what
I Am fat so what
I'm pretty so what
I Am bored so what
I Am a bit**h so what
I hate winter so what
I love summer so what
I'm 36 so what
I Am a woman so what
I'm weird so what
I swear a lot so what
I love pink so what
I have few friends so what
I love night so what
I love horror so what
i have depressed so what
I get lonely so what
Ism poor so what
I'm lazy some time so what

I don't wanna be here no more
I don't wanna feel anymore
I dont wanna deal
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna love no more
I dont wanna hold on no more
I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna be here no more come take me
I don't cry for help
Maybe I should **** myself
Maybe I'm not listening
Maybe I should run so far away to scream
Maybe maybe maybe
But we know I wont
Maybe i can be where people know
Maybe just maybe but who ******* knows
Time heal what heart wants nope not mine i rather died then feel this
Maybe maybe sleep will help

Your smile
Your hands
Your body
Your mouth
Your heart
Your eyes
Your laugh
Your feelings
Your mind
Your soul
Your just what I think about

U look down n c the most beautiful flower
U look around n dont c no more
U wonder y there is only one  lil flower
When there is a field
All is empty but that lil flower
But it still grows as if nothing ever happen
U think that poor lil  flower feels all alone
But it doesnt cause its knows that when u feel alone u r still whole
But the next day the flower noticed that he wasn't alone cuz other flower  was started to grow
N that lil poor flower wasn't alone no more.
And that day is when the lil flower realized he loved other flower
U c the lil flower didnt wanna be left alone in this world but didnt want look for other flower so  he waited to c if other flower would come by
N when she did he felt like nothing would ever hurt him again.

Everything you need to know about me lines within me you will miss everything if you keep your head down

fun
drink in hand
straight mix times to time
music loud
no one around
sometimes found in a crowd
drinking when sad  
drinking when happy
not falling down
talking to few
breaking all the rules
holding in tears
becoming a fool
faking  a smile to hide pain
going home to sleep it all away
laying down
lonely nightmares a wait

Me young
Me old
Me sad
Me happy
Me up
Me down
Me walk
Me run
Me stand
Me sit
Me cry
Me smile
Me sleep
Me awake
Me talk
Me quite
Me go
Me stay
Me dressed
Me naked
Me *****
Me clean

i see  the sun coming out from the clouds to play for the day
i see the rain coming down from the cloudy gloomy sky
i see the people of this walking around with phones in their hands not talking to one another
i see the cars driving by not looking at the people that they pass
i see the leaves falling down off the trees
i see some snow coming down from the sky but it doesn't stay
i see the dogs out having fun
i see the cats in the windows looking out wishing they could go outside as well
i see the food being prepared for eating
i see clothes hanging on the clothes line waiting to dry
i see the phone ringing but no one answers they rather txt
i see smoking coming from people mouth
i smell the air when its cold
i hold the memories
i laugh at the dumbest things
i cry at the meaningful things  
i see the time going back
i see the time going ahead
i see flowers dying and growing
i see lots of things i just don't speak of
i think a lot
i know a lot

Sceared
I want to but sceared
I feel to but sceared
I need you but sceared
I want you but sceared
I have to but sceared
I say so but sceared
For the times I let people have my time they show me why they  dont need it
I know not all are the same
probably should believe that to
Just know I am near
Just know I'm here
Just know I'm not going anywhere

The night is dark
the ghost are going through people's  body to take them over for the night
the vampires are out looking for blood
the werewolves are out looking for food
the spirits are out looking after the loved ones who miss them
the zombies are looking for brain's
the living is out running the streets

FAT
YOUR UGUY
YOUR BEAITHFUL
YOUR CRYNG
YOUR SMLING
YOUR SAD
YOUR HAPPY
YOUR DEPRESSED YOUR PAIN
YOUR NME CALLING BULLY
YOURHIDING TO STAY INSIDE
YOUR BREAKE UP
YOUR REALSHIP
YOUR AXINETY
YOUR PILLS TO HIDE

Life
Born to live
Child to live
Teenager to live
Adult to live
Motherhood to live but gone
Couples to live but not never happen
Beaten an abused looking for love but all I found was a fool
Had one but gone to soon
Friends to live but only found a few
Taken by pain I cried
Take by angry I will rise
Taken by love to survive
Sleeping at night to cry to feel alone I want to died
Happy but sad
Sad but happy
Everyday is a struggle
Time pass by
Lay here wanting for what I cant hide
Talk is cheap but why you lie
Honestly trustworthy I could cry
Why why why
May never know why
Live laugh love is a crime
Age old but people think I lied
Poor but pretty is that a crime
Again though no answers why
Time for sleep so the day can arrive
Bad thoughts try to climb
Good thoughts try to jump high
Come on you must know why
Death....
My story not over with guys.

walking home all alone on a cold winter night herding nothing but silents
so peaceful you don't know if someone is crying if someone is lying if someone is talking if someone is sleeping
but it doesn't matter cause you are alone
walking home alone in the dark thinking  i  can overcome these thoughts
walking home all alone in the dark you see two people holding hands
while walking home all alone in the dark you reach home and look around crawling to bed
sound asleep you are dreaming of nothing but when  you wake to *** you see me standing there
what should i do
but stand there watching you .

single

Stay awake
Can do what I want
Can see who I want
Can go where I want
Can talk to who I want
No one lying
No one cheating
No fighting
Staying single is good
Then why I feel so alone

The weather is hot
Fan is blowing
The sun shines bright
The night is dark
The love is in the air
The flowers are growing
The birds are signing
The air is fresh
The marshollw are roasting
The wind is blowing
The chairs are full
The trist for a drink becomes one on everyone list
The time flys when having fun
The summer is short
Enjoy before the cold kicks in
Oh no it's fall again

walking along the street when the wind blows and you hear me say your name you better run cause i will take your soul
and let my demons play with it and as it does you will be screaming help me  ill be standing there  laughing cause you got  everything that god wished for you to get remember that
as a priest is doing exorcism on you and when you see me next  you look away  i laugh some more cause i'm not done playin with you yet .

MEMORIES
PICTURES
TIME
LOVE
HATE
PAIN
EMOTIONS
HAPPY
SAD
ANGERY
S­PENDING
SILENCE
DANCE
HOME
FAMILY
FRIENDS
WEDDING
FURNAL
BIRTH
DE­ATH

BUNCH OF RANDOM WORDS
PEN TO WRITE POETRY
HISTORY TO LEARN
HISTORY TO KNOW
CALENDAR TO DATE
CALENDAR TO TIME
TV TO WATCH
TV TO WASTE TIME
CHAIR TO RELAX
CHAIR TO UNREWIND
MONEY TO SPEND
MONEY TO HIDE
MONEY TO HOLD
PINK IS FAVTOURE
PINK TO BE SPECAIL
BED TO SLEEP
BED TO MAKE LOVE
BED TO CRY
MAKE UP TO WEAR
MAKE UP TO HIDE
MASK TO COVER UP
MASK TO HIDE YOUR EYES
BLUE TO CRY

Stuff animals
Like a smile
Like a wish
Like a friend
Like a family
Like a colour
Like a beautiful goodbye
Like a hello my dear
Like a life time
Like a peace of mind
Like a first smoke of the day
Like a stiff drink
Hold on when sleeping
Hold on when talking
Hold on when crying

why so sad
what made you that way
i want you to be happy again
but you must first come here and let me hold your hand
let me tell you all the wonderful things that are around you

walking into the woods you go deep enough to see but not deep enough to breathe
standing there you think of everything an you start to scream getting louder and louder and then all of sudden you see yourself wondering around
you see yourself standing thinking i'm  high ?
what do you see
it's yourself is coming down  to look at you
you want to walk away
you are wondering why you see yourself not doing anything but again
your voice goes numb from all the screaming  but you dont care
the animals are playing with the bodies of the dead you go away cause that makes you sick  
you still see  yourself walking not feeling anything
you wonder why you dont and the same know why
so you walk up to yourself and all of sudden you and yourself come together as one an walk the long path into the lights.

run run
run run
in in
to to  
the the
woods woods
to to
scream scream
louder lounder
until until
i i
lose lose
my my
voice voice
!!
i i
dont dont
wanna wanna
be be
here here
no no
more more
please please
god god
take take
away away
my my
pain pain
i i
will will
cut cut
so so
deep deep
so so \
i dont i dont
have have
to to
scream scream
no no
more more
god god
send send
down down
your your
angle angel
to to
free me free me
from from
this this
world world
are you coming ?

World does not know this

I will walk with you but the world does not know this
I will talk with you but the world does not know this
I will hold you but the world does not know this
I will lay with you but the world does not know this
I will cry with you  but the world does not know this
I will sit with you but the world does not know this
I will be there for you but the world does not know this
I could never let you  go but again the world does not know this .

i'm becoming more of a homebody
im becoming more open
i'm becoming more  silent
im becoming more happy
i'm becoming more sad
i'm  becoming more not caring
i'm becoming more watching
for my eyes see more than i speak