you know your connected to someone when you feel them when they are not around
you know your connected to someone when you can tell how they are feeling without knowing
you know your connected to someone when you can dream bout them
you know your connected to someone when you can think of them on any random day
you know your connected to someone when you can think of them on any random night
you know your connected to someone when you have a gut feeling that it's true
you know your connected to someone when well you just know

good for those who loved this time of year and want to celebrate it
the tree is up
the lights are up
the gifts are wrapped
the food is cooking
the drinks are flowing
the pets are sleeping
the family is talking
the friends are visiting
the snow is falling
the stores are closing  
the weather is freezing
time of year to be happy  
this time of year is when you don't want to celebrate it wants to be alone
the tree is nowhere to be found
the lights aren't up
no gifts wanted
no food cooking  
maybe some drinks
the pets are there for you
the family not around
the friends not talking
the snow is here
the stores are closed
the weather is  making it hard for you
time of year to be depressed

I don't wanna be here no more
I don't wanna feel anymore
I dont wanna deal
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna love no more
I dont wanna hold on no more
I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna be here no more come take me
I don't cry for help
Maybe I should **** myself
Maybe I'm not listening
Maybe I should run so far away to scream
Maybe maybe maybe
But we know I wont
Maybe i can be where people know
Maybe just maybe but who ******* knows
Time heal what heart wants nope not mine i rather died then feel this
Maybe maybe sleep will help

Sit
Lay
Sit
Lay
Look at the clock the hands go around
Thinking of everything that goes on
Why I am not laying with you
Why I am thinking of you
Why I am dreaming of you
Why why why
I dont have the answer only you do
I listen to your words
I repeat them in my head
I listen to songs remind me
I sing then to make me feel good
I want to scream
But it wont help
Take as I am
Little ****** up
Little insane
Little crazy
My soul keeps asking me
What should I say when I don't know what to say
Come with me and walk through the woods where we can lay a d up at the same moon and stars

Knockin on heavens door
Yes can I help u
Take me away from here I can't do this anymore
I try I try
I feel like I need be here
No u dont ppl love u
Ok well it don't feel like it
Yes they do
Well why don't tell me
Well probably cause they think you know and don't need tell ya
Well they should I need them to
Well tell them
Why should I
Cant I come here so peaceful and quiet here
Cause it's not your time to he here
Well I think it is make room for me
No I can't
Why
Cause I told why
But
No go home
But
There no buts I said go
But I wanna cry
Well cry then it will help
You will see me
Yes I'll be watching
Ok
Please don't forget me
Oh I won't

thoughts in my head are telling me so many things
i don't want to listen  to them no more but they seem to always find their way back home .
I try to run from them but no use they know where i'll be
I try to walk away from them but yet again they know will ill be
i sit and think think think
why do i feel like this
being crazy is hard i feel like crying
i want to feel happy again but all i feel is sadness and loneliness
i think of cutting its my only way out
but that little voice in my head said no no no no no no
so back to my  thoughts against
now time for sleep
maybe i'll be better the next day

i sit and look out the window wondering if your thinking of me to
i sit and look out the window wondering if your talking bout me
i sit and look out the window wondering if you are ok
i sit and look out the window wondering if  you will ever know
i lay here thinking and thinking
i lay here not knowing what's going on
i lay here wondering all kinds of what ifs
i walk to think
i walk to see
but nothing is there where it should be i think i'm going crazy with my own **** thoughts but im use it so it does bother me with these thoughts
i wish things could og the way i believe but nothing will be ever be
i see the moon shining so bright
it knows how i feel and what i do
i know it will never be true
the moon knows all my secrets an you will never
i go back to the window sitting thinking an thinking
wishing i could go to sleep but nope it's not in the cards for me
so i'll lay here thinking of everything and let it all make do .