Sometimes when you lose someone,
I would be sad and hurt.

But in time i would matter as well
to forget them in my mind,
and don't remember them at all.

I try my best in my life
just to be friendly to them,
but they are friendly to me.
so That fine,
that their loss on they just lost
a really great person....

Things will change
for the rest of my life.

but I don't want things to change,
but i guess that i have to...
so good luck in my life,
and let see how long that I will last.......

If anyone would understand about my situation,
that I have been in.
I just can't take it.
I feel alone inside,
cause of people that I thought
that was my friends was threatening me.

I can't sleep cause of my pain.
I just need someone to talk
to me to understand my feelings.
I feel strong in the outside,
but in the inside,
I feel weak and afraid.

I been having panic attacks
ever since I have that threat.
I don't even know how
I can handle myself anymore.

I used to be Timeless cause my life
that no one cares about
me except my boyfriend.
he all that I have left
in this world to be honest.

he saved my life,
cause I was cutting
myself very bad.

no one believed me
cause they think that
I wouldn't do it.

I did a few times,
my cuts are healed cause
that I haven't done it
in a long time ago.

I just starved myself
when I do something wrong.
I feel pain inside cause of it.
I just don't know
what to do anymore.