what did you say?
could you repeat?
is this sarcasm?
questions I ask
those people who do not get me
everyday
Expressionless
you are to me
„The light is on“
so what?
I can see it is.
„The light is on, could you please turn it off?“
oh, now I understand
why couldnt you tell me your order directly
i do not understand
i do not fit in
behavior I do
to cope with overwhelming feelings
or when it is too much
all the time
everyday
forced hugs
I hate them
I hate them so much
why am I forced to show affection
when I do not want to?
i am not normal
sometimes I am proud
more often than not
but how do I fit in?
How?

The hierarchy in this country, or rather in the whole world is insane!
It ranks people by skincolor, age, gender, ethnicity and so much more.
Who would be at the top? Who would be #1, in the world rank of every human being.
I guess, you could think of it as a ladder, the higher you go up, the more privileged you are.
The cabinet makes laws, to make sure we are all equal, but biases and stereotypes make it hard, even by law to treat everyone equally.
I guess, the health of one‘s is not as important as the opinion of others.

Once upon a time, there was
an agency.
In this alternative reality,
all agencies sell potatoes.
Potatoes are sold like gold,
in our reality.
Potatoes are the most expensive thing,
there is.
A very wealthy buyer has come to an agreement,
with the most successful agency in the whole,
alternate reality or better, universe.
Both have come to an agreement.
The sum of the sack of potatoes is so high,
it can be used to achieve,
world peace.
And end the world hunger.
This is the story,
on how a single man,
changed the entire world.

you hurt me
i am not sure
if it was
accidental or purpose
you do not define my worth
you dont
i am strong without you
crying
mental breakdowns
because of you
it made me stronger
thank you
for showing me
what i dont want in
my future relatonship
thank you
i am a new person
after this
experience

Goodbye.

do i annoy you? Do i?
I dont want to annoy you
YOU LITTLE ***** OF COURSE
YOU ANNOY THEM
WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT?!
I am sorry
YOURE NOT SORRY YOU JUST WANT ATTENTION LIKE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE
WHY CANT YOU FINALLY ******* DIE
I HOPE YOU DIE
DIE

have you seen yourself
have you?
I really hope you have
you are a disgrace
you were a mistake
it wont matter nothing will matter
you dont help mom with her housework
you pick on your brother
why do you?
Why dont you?
Through how much pain do you want people to go through
because of you?
Tell me
how much?
TELL ME

I am happy
i am energetic
i am bubbly
but why am I not like that when I am by myself?
I dont put on a mask
its not that
i just cant stand myself
i hate myself
why do i cry at night when i think about my life?
Its not that sad
its not
so why do i cry?
Why do i feel sorry for myself?
Its my fault
its my fault
it really is
spoiled *****

Blood drips
Blood drips
Blood drips
Those cuts
disgusting
What caused them?
Was it you, was it me?
Or was it society?
It hurts It hurts
It‘s my fault
I am disgusting
why?

Mom, please let me die.
Let me leave this world.
I want to disappear.

The sun is shining,
above me is a raincloud,
it disappears when I am
around people, but it haunts me.

I wish I could love you more
with every fiber of my being,
I really really do.

Feeling I don't love you enough,
making me feel guilty.

I  am sorry.

We are here
for no reason at all
I am human
Bad people
community

HELLO!!
I AM Very Excited
FOR NO Reason
WHAT TO DO???
I CANNOT DO ANYTHING WHILE BEING
THIS EXCITED
TOO MANY EMOTIONS AT ONCE
HELP!!!

you cant escape yourself
you cant escape your life
no matter how much makeup you put on
Lisa
Lisa you little stupid *****
you cant get rid of yourself
those fake nails you got
that new haircut
you will never get rid of me
no matter how much you try
my sweet little angel

the attention you get online
it means nothing
all those compliments from creepy men
why do you feel good about that?
why do you seek attention and validation from men online?
dont you see how pathetic it is?
it only shows how pathetic and worthless you are
no friends
you ******* loser
why cant i be dead
BOOHOO you little *****
people have it so mch worse, and you cry about that
i wish you would go through an accident, or get someone you love killed
we see about that how much your life really *****
attention seeking little *****