what did you say?
could you repeat?
is this sarcasm?
questions I ask
those people who do not get me
everyday
Expressionless
you are to me
„The light is on“
so what?
I can see it is.
„The light is on, could you please turn it off?“
oh, now I understand
why couldnt you tell me your order directly
i do not understand
i do not fit in
behavior I do
to cope with overwhelming feelings
or when it is too much
all the time
everyday
forced hugs
I hate them
I hate them so much
why am I forced to show affection
when I do not want to?
i am not normal
sometimes I am proud
more often than not
but how do I fit in?
How?

The hierarchy in this country, or rather in the whole world is insane!
It ranks people by skincolor, age, gender, ethnicity and so much more.
Who would be at the top? Who would be #1, in the world rank of every human being.
I guess, you could think of it as a ladder, the higher you go up, the more privileged you are.
The cabinet makes laws, to make sure we are all equal, but biases and stereotypes make it hard, even by law to treat everyone equally.
I guess, the health of one‘s is not as important as the opinion of others.

Once upon a time, there was
an agency.
In this alternative reality,
all agencies sell potatoes.
Potatoes are sold like gold,
in our reality.
Potatoes are the most expensive thing,
there is.
A very wealthy buyer has come to an agreement,
with the most successful agency in the whole,
alternate reality or better, universe.
Both have come to an agreement.
The sum of the sack of potatoes is so high,
it can be used to achieve,
world peace.
And end the world hunger.
This is the story,
on how a single man,
changed the entire world.

you hurt me
i am not sure
if it was
accidental or purpose
you do not define my worth
you dont
i am strong without you
crying
mental breakdowns
because of you
it made me stronger
thank you
for showing me
what i dont want in
my future relatonship
thank you
i am a new person
after this
experience

Goodbye.

do i annoy you? Do i?
I dont want to annoy you
YOU LITTLE ***** OF COURSE
YOU ANNOY THEM
WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT?!
I am sorry
YOURE NOT SORRY YOU JUST WANT ATTENTION LIKE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE
WHY CANT YOU FINALLY ******* DIE
I HOPE YOU DIE
DIE

have you seen yourself
have you?
I really hope you have
you are a disgrace
you were a mistake
it wont matter nothing will matter
you dont help mom with her housework
you pick on your brother
why do you?
Why dont you?
Through how much pain do you want people to go through
because of you?
Tell me
how much?
TELL ME

I am happy
i am energetic
i am bubbly
but why am I not like that when I am by myself?
I dont put on a mask
its not that
i just cant stand myself
i hate myself
why do i cry at night when i think about my life?
Its not that sad
its not
so why do i cry?
Why do i feel sorry for myself?
Its my fault
its my fault
it really is
spoiled *****