I just wish the wind
Would ******* away
Take my brittle bones
And break them with ease
And I would blow through the trees
Carry on with the breeze
To a distant place, a place that
I could forget you and me
But I'm far too heavy
Far too weighed down
By the heavy load of the absence of your love
The burden of you gone to not return
As much as I try to free myself of you
You return in dreams like the passing of the leaves
Tumbling by with the wind
As fast here as quick you were gone
But you haven't left, my dear
Oh you have not moved on
From my billowing thoughts
Of what could have been
And I'll pretend to keep my head in the clouds
Despite being buried up to my neck in woes
Dreaming of a day that I'll be light enough to be carried away
By this wind so strong today

Jesus Christ, I'm all alone
Nothing but pain dwells
Swelling inside, a bubble of hate
Contempt for so called friends
So called lovers, abandoned
Sharing an empty room
With this bottle of botanicals
Sure to quiet this madness
Or soothe this nagging sadness
Or maybe just intensify it all
Oh well, who cares
Nobody

Well it seems to me that
Things aren't all that bad for you
Except for your fear of being alone
Fear of doing absolutely nothing
Something I once took solace in
That you've turned into torture
Supposedly a cure for myself
Robbed me of all normalcy
Crucified me for none to see
Hanging there
Alone

A box of broken glass
Filled to the very top
Fragments of a broken heart
Shattered memories
Sharp feelings of hopelessness
Emotional shrapnel
Filled to the top
of a box that reads
"Break in case of emergency"

****** fingertips smearing red
As I dig and dig and dig
Desperately trying to find
Something leftover
Something forgotten
Something soft & warm
Just one last thing to hold onto
Anything to quiet this mind
Bottom of the box, still no luck.

Left alone to lick my wounds
Pluck out each small piece of glass
Stitch every gaping ****
Bandage over ****** bandage
I sit there to heal
Next to the place
Where I've smashed all these things
And placed them in a box that reads
"Break in case of emergency"