Sometimes I have nothing
Beautiful to say
No thoughts conspire
Just an emptiness
Paired with loneliness
I sit and want more
To create something
Beautifully real
But I'm trapped
In my memories
And my expectations
Of what I desire
And how they fail me
How I crash after success
That it is unbelievably hard
To remain consistent
It is insanely difficult
To deal with anything
My entire mind goes blank
I shut off from everyone
I can't even trust myself