How can I do that?
to love myself more enough
if no one loves me

I'm a survivor
from the misery of life
but now I will die

I'm drowning my face with my tears while thinking how hurtful it is that you tear me apart

I'm drowning my throat with these can of beers trying to forget all the memories we once had

I'm drowning my lungs from shouting your name to curse you from not being with me anymore

I'm drowning my feet crossing the bridge called 'moving-on' to walk away to your toxic love affairs

I'm drowning my heart to someone else but still I'm longing for the love from the person who cause me so much pain and sorrow

I'm drowning myself to this darkness feeling empty and vulnerable

Some people say I just need to pray
To let the depression and pain go away
But when I did, nothing happens to me
The burden didn't slip away

You make me believe you are always here
Where in reality you are nowhere to be seen
I beg on my knee and bow down my head
To talk to somebody who doesn't exist

I don't know where to go,
My feet is aching and my heart is burning
The tears on my face just keep on flowing
I'm still asking myself why I'm still holding

So I change my mind and let the gun pointed to my head
So that the bullet pierce me to death
I'm still holding the trigger waiting for someone to yell
To stop me from doing the unwanted

Please don't leave me yet
I need more time for myself
so stay for a while

Sorry now and then
I know that is not enough
I deeply regret

I hold this fragments
a love in tiny pieces
shards of broken hearts

I'm widely awake
in the middle of the night
deeply hurt and pained

Thanks for breaking up
I am no longer with you
I love you no more

I miss it so much
the warm and passionate kiss
to happen again

The sea miss the sand
cause it keeps on coming back
I hope you're like that

I need someone who will see sadness in my eyes even when I have a big smile

I need someone who will make me laugh when I don't even want to talk

I need someone who will see my worth when I feel much less

I need someone who will understand me even if there is no scribbles to decode