I want to run away
I want to hide away at least one day
I want someone to look at me and
I want someone to say “you’re not okay”
I want someone to tell me its fine
To feel these things inside my mind

Tears
Are like
Raindrops
They start slow
Then pour out fast
Always uncontrollable
Why is there no warning to
A mental storm? Why do tears
Fall randomly? With no reason?
Tears Are like Raindrops Everyday
You never know how hard they’ll
Fall. Or how fast they’ll become
All you know is you’re hurt
And you can’t save
Yourself

I hate that everyday you remind me of my shame
Remind me of who I'm not meant to be
Remind why i shouldn’t stay

I hate that I’m still here
And
I hate that I’ve survived

“Well maybe I can go another day and I’ll be fine”
It's what I tell myself
“I’ll be fine”
“Your strong”
But then I look in the mirror and I see exactly what's wrong
I see that I’m broken
I’m not fine
I’m not okay
I can’t handle this pain
Going through it everyday
It hurts me in more ways than I can say
And I really don’t know why I’m still here
Or what this is about
All I know is I’m broken
And I don't deserve this help
I don't deserve this love
I don't deserve anyone

And I don’t know where to go
And I don't know what to do
And I don't know what to say
But it hurts everyday too

I hear it in my voice and see it in my eyes
But no one can tell because I’ve gotten good at the element of surprise
I’ve gotten good at hiding it everyday

But no one looks at me the same
Because maybe they know I’m broken
But they don’t know what to do
And they can’t help me at all  
Because I’m ******* over to

You reach a point
Where you look at yourself and give up
Where you realize that everything feels like nothing
And that there is no point
You realize that nothing is fine
But you act like it is
You reach a point where you’re ready to give up
Ready to leave
To disappear
To say goodbye

Behind our masks
Who no one knows
Is where our true selves go
Behind our masks
Is where our tears fall fast
Where the sun doesn’t shine
Behind our masks