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48 · Apr 30
Lead Me (Or Don't)
OnLithium Apr 30
I don't know where
We were led astray
Been told to look up
But all I see is devils above
And angels below
All the right intentions have paved
The way to hell
Lies and misdirections have guided
The way to heaven
48 · Apr 28
(N)Ever After
OnLithium Apr 28
For those who know disaster
For those who know loving laughter

Those who know bitter
Ends
And those who know sweet Beginnings

Ever after only exists
For some
Call it Schrodinger's Fairy Tale
48 · Jun 25
Å
OnLithium Jun 25
Å
Sitting here
In a hotel
In Albuquerque
In Awe
Of how we got here
It really is just
A series of chances
Events that dictate
Outcomes
As you sleep
I Am granted
The time to realize
I like this outcome
So far.
The intro to a new series following the Number Series
47 · Apr 5
Swing
OnLithium Apr 5
Please strike me down
Wearing that ******* crown
Sitting on a chair of bones
You watched me rot
Deep inside
I bathe in gasoline so please
Throw the match
Start denying me
I'd love to watch you scream
You cannot judge
Watch me swing from the rope
Been dead for a while now
Let me hang
Spread my hands wishing
To be a martyr
But I'll never be remembered for that
Just a mistake in your past
47 · Jun 24
97
OnLithium Jun 24
97
I close my eyes
And pretend
No.
I don't want to know
Its not in my control
No.
You took everything
Gave it all to someone new
No.
You did what you had to
I can't be bitter
No?
47 · 7d
Haunted
Being remembered
Forever
Sounds like like a tall
Task
That I'm not up for
Nope
I just want to be
Forgiven
For all that I've
Caused
46 · Apr 1
Placement
OnLithium Apr 1
I'd love to meet you halfway,
I just don't think today is the day,
Wrap yourself around me,
Let whatever this is be.

Reflections of souls beneath the moon's glare,  
A cruel embrace leaves scars I must bear,
The fire of my past now a flickering flame,  
Faded photographs whispering names I don't claim.  

Crimson skies bleed with my forgotten cries,  
The weight of the past like a shroud that denies,
Chained to the moments that scream in vain,  
Like a tornado in my heart, driving me insane.

As the hourglass shatters, and time slips away,  
I embrace the blame, a small price to pay,  
In a labyrinth of memories, I search for the light,  
But every step forward pulls me farther into the night.  

In the mistakes of yesterday, where the sunlight fades,  
Disbelief in my veins and loathing that invades,
Acceptance deep in my soul,  
Hate entangles, a noose on a pole.

In the silence of dawn, I find peace in decay,  
As I stand on the edge, I'm letting the shadows stay,
I am the echo that I want to erase,
In my heavy heart may I find my place.
46 · Jun 23
92
OnLithium Jun 23
92
Shaking like a leaf
In a bitter wind
Trying to just hold on
To what's holding me down
Knowing if I can't
I'll float to a place
I don't know
And just skitter around
46 · May 9
A - ?
OnLithium May 9
A drunk without a drink
A river with no beginning
A street with no cars or pedestrians
A bar with no patrons
A mountain with no peak
A bustling city with no noise
A fiend without a drug
A valley with no bottom
A beggar with no cardboard sign

I am a -
44 · Jun 24
96
OnLithium Jun 24
96
Let this be a reminder
That while hell
Is cruel and horrific
It was this world
That made me
As dysfunctional
And disgusting
As I am
Hell isn't my
Designer
44 · Jun 21
24 Pt. 2
OnLithium Jun 21
To Whom It May Concern,

This soul has found
No rest
These eyes have seen
Horrors beyond belief
These hands are covered
In blood that is not theirs
These legs won't hold
For much longer
Please be there
I'm counting on you.

Sincerely,
Me
42 · Jun 7
54
OnLithium Jun 7
54
I sit here
Chewing holes in my mouth
Worrying
That someday soon
I'll be begging for the
Mercy
I never gave to myself
42 · Jun 9
Unidentified
OnLithium Jun 9
Trying to figure out
Who I am
Is like
Trying to combine
Bits and pieces
Of shredded papers
Sound bites that
Don't go together
Videos that
Don't look like me
Or at least
Who I thought I was?
41 · Jun 7
55
OnLithium Jun 7
55
I can't continue
Like this
Relying on
Liquor
And Benadryl
To help me
Sleep
Begging for
Some sort of
Peace
40 · Apr 26
(U)
OnLithium Apr 26
(U)
You're beautiful
Carefree and forgiving
Loyal and perfectly imperfect
Who would've thought
Your greatest flaw would be

Me
39 · Apr 28
Stitched Lies
OnLithium Apr 28
I can't look you in the eyes
For you have sewed mine
"Is it really different?"
Love is blind.

I haven't seen light in so long
I don't even know what is wrong
"Is it just you and me?"
Maybe in my mind.

And for the first time
I opened my eyes
Feeling the yarn rip
Only to find

You. Aren't. Here.
39 · Apr 26
¿Duality?
OnLithium Apr 26
I don't want to feel anything
Yet I complain when I feel nothing.

I don't want to find love again
Yet I complain when no one wants me.

I don't want to talk anymore
Yet I complain when I'm not heard.
37 · Jun 7
Honestly?
OnLithium Jun 7
I get asked questions
That I
Have already tortured myself with
For years
I get defensive
While being offered guidance
I get fueled by false hope
That someday
I'll have the wherewithal
To wake up
Look myself in the mirror
And be okay with what I see
But for now
Therapy blows chunks.
37 · Jun 12
68
OnLithium Jun 12
68
Take the breath
Out of my lungs
The fear
Out of my heart
The worry
Out of my mind
The anxiety
Out of my nerves
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