OnLithium

OnLithium Jun 7

I get asked questions
That I
Have already tortured myself with
For years
I get defensive
While being offered guidance
I get fueled by false hope
That someday
I'll have the wherewithal
To wake up
Look myself in the mirror
And be okay with what I see
But for now
Therapy blows chunks.

OnLithium Jun 7

53

I let you
Consume my mind
Influence my habits
Control who I am
Only to wake up
From another binge
And realize
You. Aren't. Here.

OnLithium Jun 7

52

For somebody who thinks
I shouldn't be here
Its awkward to say
I believe you do
Guess I have to start
Listening to my own mouth

OnLithium Jun 7

fidus Achates

Daydreaming
About saying hello again
And never saying goodbye

Daydreaming
About seeing you smile
And it never fading away

Daydreaming
About playing in the stars
And never coming back down

OnLithium Jun 7

51

I remember
My first attempt
And the second
And even the third
A different method
Each and every time

Been bailed out by fate
And still
Haven't made anything
Of myself

OnLithium Jun 6

50

The dame
Who is't controls
Mine own luck
Hasn't been v'ry
F'rgiving

Nothing is moving
Mine own way
Shall the tide
Ev'r turneth
Doubtful

OnLithium Jun 6

S.o.S

I don't know
What to say
The words
Caught in
My throat
Tears trapped
In your eyes
You need to
Hear me
Say it
Yet I can't
Suffocating
On syllables