1,2,3
break
that's your heart
breaking...
it slowly starts is breaking
till its completely
shattered
he did this too you
he's leaving so all you
feel is pain
pain in your body
you feel your self wanting to cry
but
you shed so many tears already it's almost
impossible
well now you know your hurting
but
no one else will

my thoughts are like poison, trying to drown me.
trying to make me struggle.
Make me cry from the inside.
These thoughts... there is no easy way to put them.
They aren't suicidal but they aren't happy either.
I guess you could say they are numb.
they are quiet, but they are loud.
they wanna make me hear them clearly.
but really they come out in unclear, mumbled thoughts.
things I just can't hear. trying to tell me from ear to ear.
telling me my own sorrows.
telling me since age 8.
they don't go away.
but I don't beg them to stay.
Some of my thoughts keep me sane.
keep me from dying.
lows of lows they're there.
highs of highs they are there.
they aren't going anywhere.
7 years they've been there.
many more they are to come.

you're pushing me
pushing me over the edge
wanting me to die
to fall to my death
like any other human]I have feelings too
but you never really cared did you
you didn't because no one ever cared about yours

"Pull the trigger"
they yell
"jump"
they scream
"go die will ya''
they say
it's all fun and games
till I actually listen.

my heart
too small to hold
but too big to keep
as that is how it seems
the feeling of it breaking
piece by piece
whithering to ash
falling from the darkness
from the pain you caused
the tears streaming down my face
the ache in my chest
just make it stop
I let myself free
but you keep me.
keep me locked up so
I'll never be free

sidewalks?
why do we have them?
do they need to be there
or
are they useless?
some say the sidewalks end
others say it doesn't
I don't know what to believe
does it or no?
we may never know

1 bullet left
pull it they say
the guns in your hand
you're looking at smiling
is this really what you want?
do you really wanna pull that **** trigger?
do you think your life is that bad?
do it they say
and next thing you know
your seeing black
and that gun your holding
falls to the ground
with no bullets left...