She just wanted to be loved
She just wanted a child
She just wanted a home
She just wanted to smile
She just wanted to be safe
She just wanted some calm
She just wanted to feel good
She just didn’t want harm
She just wanted to be happy
She’s just sick of the crimes but she knows
No’one has loved her in a very long time

Silly girl
You did it again
You trusted the empty
Words of men
Stupid woman
Will you not ever learn?
That kisses from fire
Will never not burn
You ridiculous child
Must you feel this again?
Lonely and quiet and
Missing a friend
Silly old me
Though my gut always knew
I skipped and fell blindly
To be dropped by you

God I’m so angry
I’m never the one
I’m always just one
On a list.
Wow I am furious
It never works out
I just work hard
And end up with ****.
**** I am livid
Why isn’t it me?
Me who’s loved and lived for
and kissed?
Jesus Christ I have never been madder
At all the things I don’t have
And have missed.

Too tired to cry,
Too busy to die.
I’ll just say ‘see you later’
Because I don’t do goodbyes.
What a ****** liberty,
What a disease.
No shoes on
Inside the house please.

They say that when you know
You know
And I know that with you I’m safe
I know
They say it’s too soon but with you
I know
When I say I could keep you forever
I know
If you’re not here I don’t feel like me now
I know
I know you want time all alone but
I know
And despite you not knowing it yet
I know, I know, I know

I don’t recognise real love,
And my father can’t see purple.
I say yes to pain and sickness,
And him? Well he just crumbles.
I am born of years of hurt,
And he is colourblind.
I am scribbled on a page but
Him? He is straight lines.
Now I’m not sure I’d accept it,
And he wouldn’t know it either way.
So I suppose the issue is that
Love is purple you could say.

Hilarious that I’ll pretend I’m not in love
With you,
When I can’t see the rocket emoji without
Thinking of you,
Can’t go to the beach without wishing you
Were with me,
Can’t see the colours blue or green without
Seeing your eyes,
Hilarious that I’ll pretend not everything is
About you,
When I’m achieving bigger things because I know you’re proud,
When I’m taking better care of myself like you said I should,
Making you smile is my favourite thing,
You’re my favourite thing.