If I could have just a single wish
I think I’d want to see
exactly what you’re looking at
when you’re watching me.

I hear my taunting mirror
SHOUTING
hung backwards on my wall
All my imperfections
Broken
Shattered from the fall.

I fear not so much the physical
but the emotional wreck inside

—

You say i’m inspirational
beautiful
and
magical

What I see is horrible
terrible
and
nonsensical

Overly dramatic
Buried in my dreams
thinking quite sparatically
nothing’s as it seems

I’ll break your heart
It’s inevitable

You’ll never be the same

I’m nothing but bad news
Quite negligible

Another pawn of this game.

—

If I could have just a single wish
I think I’d want to see
exactly what you’re looking at
when you’re watching me.

I've always believed that "never"

was one of those forbidden words


Until I met you though,

"forever" never was


Then sometimes when I close my eyes


I wish there never were


Those moments when I realize,

you'll forever be with her.


I never thought I'd be that girl

Waiting on the side


Watching as my forever love

takes on another bride


So now I know without a doubt


"Never" is very real.


For I'll never have that moment


When I know how forever feels.

Knowing is simply impossible...


Feeling invisible


Completely unimaginable...


-- Walking a straight line, slightly to the left. Knees bent, heart weak, mind open.


If you held my hand for only a moment


I'd be lost


For that moment would be our last.

I don't want to be your addiction.

Irresistably a sin

A crime of passion was committed.

Like a drug I'm in again

Strung out and codependent

Barely standing

All alone

I don't want to be your addiction

Give up and just go home.

There's always someone waiting

Another lie rolls off your tongue

You hide all the evidence well

No one knows I'm the drug you've done.

There are no scars to be noticed

No track marks on your skin

Perhaps a few scratches on your back

Just from my fingers digging in.

I don't want to be your addiction

To be the reason for all your lies

But I know you'll never stop abusing... me

I can see it in your bloodshot eyes.