.
Through the time,
You moved the wind and
I moved with it
You watched me over
As I ignored your presence
I lived inside the circle as if I know nothing beyond it
I existed around until they left me standing
And when they left me standing alone, numb, and broken -
I realised, you.
.
I connected to you when
I lost myself
I understood you when
I forgot myself
I won you when I failed myself
.
I asked you to let me in
And to forgive my sins
I asked you to ease my heart
And to grant me peace
I asked you to guide me
And I asked you to love me
.
I used to be numb.
But suddenly,
I felt the numbness fade from my mind
I used to have a sick heart.
But suddenly,
I felt my heart make space for you
I used to be alone.
Now,
I found myself involved in you
I used to be someone else
Now,
I see you change me through.
.
And that's when you started
to talk back.
.
Through the time,
You moved the wind and
I moved with it
When I watched you put tranquillity in my exhausted heart,
I could imagine the great might that you must have
When I started to see
how you give me everything that I had asked you for,
I could see the epic enormous heart that you must have
I can see you ease my difficulties
I can see you accompany me inside this circle
I can see you be with me as I grow
I can see the unseen
.
So that's how it is
I ignore you and you ignore me
I remember you and you
remember me
I call you and you respond
I ask you and you give
I understand you
And you let me understand the world
I live now as if I have met that
which is beyond my thoughts
But I talk to you
because I feel you
I talk to you because I see you.
I see you.
I see the unseen more than I see that which is seeable
I see you.
I see you exalted in might.
I see you already الله and that in itself is a blessing to me🤍

.
it's crazy to fall for something so pure, it feels unreal.
.
People all around us seem to sink so deep
trying to right their wrongs
They all be living in a blur
.
It's hard to educate them
harder to have the education and be around them
.
We've started to leave our past and our present
We're living in the then
Back then when things were real
Back when people were human
Back when generosity was not a favour
Back when what we see was all we see
Back when there was a heavenly earth
'Back when' is so back, it makes us sad
.
We were never true believers
We were never looking to be one
But when it happened,
The world felt silly
When our hearts turned
The world for us turned forever
When we learnt the truth
We started,
living in the then
.
No nobody's worth
Dreaming of all
for nobody knows all
Yes it took a while
There was a struggle
Cutting down the list,
Making time for it,
Real slow,
We grew into a school of truth
.
In this house of broken hearts
We made our hearts of shields too hard
And yes we are trying to hold on tight.
Cause yes we know this love is hard to find
.
It's like heaven when we're in hell
We're some here but all there
So we fake a smile
Cause it's alright
When the time comes,
We'll win
.
Caught in the moment
Why do we love this feeling?
We don't know where this leads
But that's the only question.
For now maybe,
we'll just keep holding tight.
.
We're living in the then,
And it's beautiful.
We're curious ,
But it's fine.
We'll wait.
But until it's here,
    we'll live in then.

•
You wearing white
with minimal details of black
You were the same sanguine
You had the same outlook.
But your physiognomy was different
Maybe more evolved.
I wondered if we ever think of each other at the same time ?
You helped me
You were smiling all the time
****** it all felt real to me.
•
Thats when I noticed,
People moving
Wind breezing
Time passing
And I realised,
Nothing else was frozen
Just you, your smiling eyes and your speaking smile.
•
Maybe it would have lasted.
Maybe if wasn't real
it could have given me more
Maybe we touched
Maybe we laughed
Maybe we danced
Maybe we were one.
Maybe, after I woke up,
we were together.
•
But it's silly how it's not sad for me
How I'm not melancholic about it
Knowing it might be the last time I'm seeing you the clearest.
Knowing that, though a dream,
but maybe it's all we get,
I don't rue it.
•
****** it all felt real to me.
How we parted ways.
All you did at the end was smile.
I struggled for looking at your sight,
Until the bridge wall separated us forever.
•
Here I am dreaming about
the dream I had.
Hoping it meant something good.
That parting-ways was all I wanted to end the remains of your love in my heart.
Like a closure to the story we had.
•
It was never real
Neither the dream nor the little love struck time we had
You never smiled with your heart.
Your eyes never told me about you.
My dream perhaps,
was how I mistook us.
Thought you and I are some, intimate utopian angles.
For all I know,
what felt the most real thing to me in this world, was never real.
•
And Suddenly, everything is sane
Look how penning down my dream,
I also gave us an epilogue.
And what a graceful way to step ahead.
Remembering good.
Becoming better

•
I tried to write you in a poem
To pen us down
To hold us in papers
All this time feeling you, without you.

The sun has set and the sky turns dark
Surrounded by silence with no one to talk My obsession for night time , never ends
Even though my life has too many bends
I gaze at the sky , throughout the nights
Despite of having several mosquito bites
Quiet black sky , refills my soul
A best companion, who makes me whole
Night passes soon and the day is too long 
I wait for the night again, which makes me strong