Waves of loneliness,
Seasons of emptiness,
Stay a while
Then leave.
But I fear
as I go on,
the globe burns
into an eternal summer
and the seas rise
never to
fall
Again.

We're all just people
Walking through life
imploding and exploding
Simultaneously
In every given moment

The point of all this
Isn't to be happy
I realize that now.
So I ask
What is?

Sometimes I wish I was a
Bird.
But then I think,
who am I kidding?
I wouldn't trust my own
Wings.

Words are a very stubborn thing
Only coming out of hiding when forced
I'm a bully waiting by the swings
Just let me write without remorse

It seems the words won't be giving in
without a fight.
I should get comfortable,
No doubt I'll be here all night.

The only kind of fight
That can numb pain
instead of causing more of it
Is a snow fight

All the tension
All the anger
All the exhaustion
All the self hatred

Just freeze in the air

And your surrounded with
screeming and laughter
Running and ducking
Aiming and throwing

I haven't had a snow fight
In a long time
It was a nice surprise.

Orli,
Your scars are showing.
Orli,
Your movements are slowing
Orli,
Your eyes are red and blurring.
Orli,
Your brain is overflowing.

You can't let them see.
You can't let them know.

Orli,
Your scars are showing.

It's all lies.
All the flies and the spies
You sent came back misadvised
You thought maybe
You can deserve somthing more
Maybe your worth saving
If your vulnerable enough to explore
The shores and the locked doors
Curiously waiting
Constantly aching
It's all lies
Those thoughts and your hearts
Show you parts you never wanted to find
You'd stay blind for the rest of your life
If you could.
The light can't burn
If you shut you eyes
It's all lies
It's all lies
It's all lies