I follow you o godhead
Show me the true meaning
Meaning of my life
Show me that god

Lord show me my mistakes
Show me what i need to do
To atone for my sins

O lord if i have done anything
To offend you then
Please show me mercy
Cause i am thou devotee
And thou is my lord

O lord please kindly appear
And tell me the ways of life
The symphony of creations
Tell me the stories of your greatness

Cause i am thou devotee
And thou is my supreme

I can feel your power o lord
I can feel your soul
So pious and pure
Please o lord
Teach me the way of greatness

Cause i am thou  devotee
And thou is the creator

Hey sometimes loneliness defines me
Sometimes the happiness
When i cry maybe someone else is crying
When I laugh may be someone else is laughing
Maybe someone who looks like me is popular
Or
Maybe he is poor
But what defines someone is not what u people look
U look the color the caste religion
They say what u see in people who are low to defines the best
Possible u

Hey i respect u
I don't hate u
I can walk like u
Speak like u
Then why's the differentiation
Why do u define me
Are u the one
Who's supposed to define me
Noo
Because it's not u who defines me
It's I who defines mee
And u cannot change that

The night was windy
I was seeing  something
I was feeling
Wicked  being
Within you
Your **** wickedness
I cursed  you
I bad mouthed you
But  you stuck
Cause
It's was ***
It  was just a
Mutual ***
Mutual  feeling
You screamed
In pleasure and pain
And
Asking me for more
And more
Wanting it more than anything
I thought it was love
But you Denied
I was not shocked
When you wanted to end it officially
I complied
But you asked for
One last night
I gave
You
The roughest ***
You desired
Tied you
Spanked you
Simply baby
Bad mouthed you
Cursed you
And had ***
Like an animal
Then
When you were about to leave
I asked
You to marry me
But you didn't agree
I changed
After you left me
I even attended your wedding day
You looked like
You wanted me as groom
But you didn't say a thing
Time passed
I went Girl after girl
Never getting the satisfaction
That you gave
One day I saw you
On the way to office
I stopped
I grabbed you
I kissed you
Shoved you in my car
And took off
In my room
I assumed you would not
Fight back
But you fought
Finally loosing my mind
I forced you
Forcibly ***** you
When it was over
You silently cried
And I held you
And you sobbed more
Hitting me on the chest
crying out loud now
Moaning loudly
You cursed me
I was surprised
Woh
You cursed me
Saying I  corrupted you
Making you to like only
Only my ***
And no-one else
She said she was avoiding me
Cause once I saw her
I would have had ***
Like no-one else
And
She would have to
Come back for more
Cause of it
Her marriage had broken
I said I loved her
And asked her to marry me
She asked
Why did I still love her ?
I said no-one else can give me pleasure
That she could
She hugged me
And said
She was a fool letting me go
And till this windy night
I see and feel her
By my side

What color is love I wonder
How does love looks like   I Wonder
Is it beautiful ?
Or is it ugly ?
Does it shine bright?
Or does it have dark side?
I wonder
I wonder
Does love happen  once?
Or
It happens twice?
SAY
Do we have a soulmate
Which we can love?
How does our  mate
Looks like  I wonder?
I wonder?
Is she beautiful?
Or is she ugly?
I don't care
But  
Sometimes I wonder
I wonder  
How will I find my mate?
Or
How will she find me?
How will out  first meeting be?
Will it be good?
Or
Will it be awkward?
I wonder
I wonder
Hey
I see
I feel
I can smell you
I can tell you are close
Will it be like this
Or
Opposite
I wonder
I wonder
About everything with you
Will my inner wolf
Try to claim you?
I really wonder
What you are
How am I
I wonder  
How
Love will happen between us ?
How will our first night be?
How will our first Kiss be?
I wonder
How will your body respond to me?
SAY
can  love sprout between us?
I wonder if love is like  this?
I wonder if love is a being?
I wonder if it speaks
If it talks to you
If it talks to me
If it tells you that I am  close
Tells you that it's love
That bound us
I wonder
I really  wonder  now
I really wonder now

I SEE A BEAUTIFUL GIRL
HEADING DOWN THE DREAM LADDER
IN WHITE WEDDING GOWN
BETWEEN TWO GIRLS
HOLDING FLOWERS
I HAVE KNOWN THIS GIRL
FOR YEARS
15 YEARS TO BE PRÉCISE
TODAY SHE WAS GETTING MARRIED
TO A BOY
WITH HANDSOME SALARY
AND 2 CRORES HOUSE
I FELT A PANG OF JEALOUSY
CAUSE
I WAS THE ONLY ONE
IN HER LIFE
TAKING CARE OF HER
GIVING GIFTS WHEN SHE WAS ANGRY
LAUGHING AT HER MESS
AND
THE ONLY ONE TO WHOM
HER DOG
WILLOW LOVED BESIDE HER
AH SO
I SAW HER DOG WILLOW
COMMING DOWN THE DREAM LADDER
WITH SAD FACE IN HER EYES
I PATTED AND GREETED HER
WHICH SHE RESPONDED WITH GRATITUDE THEN
SHE LOOKED AT VANESSA
THE WEDDING GAL
I KNEW HER EVERY DESIRES
WITHOUT HER SAYING IT TO ME
I COULD FEEL HER PAIN AND HAPPINESS
I COULD FEEL EVERYTHING
I SAW VANESSA LOOKING AT ME
AND FACING AWAY
WHAT DID I FELT?
TODAY I FELT SHE WAS LEAVING ME
WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH ME??
WILLOW
TOUCHED
VANESSA'S WEDDING GOWN WITH ONE HAND
AND GIVING OTHER ONE TO ME
SHE WAS TRYING TO SAY SOMETHING
"THAT'S LOVE YOU IDIOTS"
WILLOW'S EYE SPOKE
"YOU TWO ARE MADE FOR EACH OTHER
SO PLEASE VANESSA DON'T MARRY
RICHARD"
I FELT THAT WILLOW WANTED US TOGETHER
I HAVE TO SPEAK SOON
THE COURAGE WHICH WAS LOST SPOKE
"I LOVE YOU VANESSA"
"I TRULY LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU"
VANESSA SLAPPED MY FACE
AND
SPOKE"GET THE **** OUTTA HERE"
I CRIED AND WENT OUT
BUT
WILLOW CAME AND
GRABBED ME WITH BOTH HANDS TRYING TO STOP ME
I SAID"WILLOW BABE LEAVE MY LEG  PLEASE?"
SHE WASN'T LEAVING IT
THE VERY SAME TIME
VANESSA CAME OUT
CRYING OVER
AND LEFT IN THE CAR
I ASKED"WILLOW SHE LOVES ME?"
IN MY SURPRISE SHE WAGS HER TAIL
THEN I  HURRIEDLY  CARRIED WILLOW TO MY CAR
AND SAID"WE HAVE TO STOP HER, UP FOR IT BABE?"
SHE WAS BORN READY
I DROVE MY CAR AS FAST AS I COULD
AND SAW VANESSA'S CAR ,
SHE WOULD REACH THE CHURCH IN 3 MINUTES
I SPED MY CAR AND STOPPED
IT BY
BLOCKING HER WAY
I CARRIED VANESSA TO MY CAR
WHILE WILLOW STOPPED THE FAMILY MEMBERS FROM REACHING HER
AND I CALLED WILLOW"BABE TIME TO LEAVE"
SHE HOPPED ON MY CAR
AND
WE DROVE AWAY
VANESSA CRIED AND SPOKE
""YOU IDIOTS I LOVE YOU BOTH"
THE END

PS. I MARRIED VANESSA AND WILLOW SHE IS AS BEAUTIFUL AS SHE WAS BEFORE

MY CHILD YES ! MY CHILD
I HAVE A CHILD OF 5YEARS OLD
DESPITE BEING A GANGSTER
I TOO AM A FATHER
SO I DEARLY LOVE MY CHILD
THE POLICE MAY NOT RECOGNISE
RECOGNIZE MY LOVE
MY LOVE FOR MY CHILD
THE DAY SHE WAS BORN
I SAID I WOULD NOT BE
GANGSTER ANYMORE
THEN
I QUIT DOING CRIME
I DID SHOPKEEPING
FOR 5 YEARS AFTER MY CHILD WAS BORN
I QUIT DOING CRIME
BUT ONE DAY POLICE CAME
AND TRIED TO TAKE ME JAIL
TO ATONE FOR MY CRIMINAL ACTIVITIES
BUT MY LITTLE DAUGHTER
TUGGED ON THE PANTS
OF POLICE CRYING AND SAYING
"DON'T TAKE MY PAPA AWAY FROM ME"
AT THIS THE POLICE SAID
"YOUR FATHER HAS DONE CRIME
HE HAS TO ATONE FOR"
BY THIS TIME I TOO WAS CRYING
SEEING MY CHILD BEGGING THE POLICE TO LEAVE ME
I WAS ASHAMED OF MYSELF
ASHAMED OF WHO I HAD BECAME
FINALLY I HELD MY DAUGHTER'S
HAND AND TOLD HER
"DON'T WORRY SWEETHEART
PAPA IS NOT GOING TO LEAVE YOU"
THEN
I WENT WITH THE POLICE
FOR 15 YEARS I WAS ON JAIL
IN THESE 15 YEARS I THOUGHT
MY DAUGHTER HAS FORGOTTEN
ME
BUT WHEN I CAME OUT OF JAIL
I SAW HER LOOKING BEAUTIFUL
LIKE AN ANGEL
WAITING FOR ME
I WENT FORWARD AND WAS THINKINGTO CONVINCE HER
SAYING"I AM SORRY THAT YOU HAD TO FEEL THE REGRESSION OF HAVING A PAPA LIKE ME" BUT THE MOMENT SHE SAW ME
SHE HUGGED ME
SAYING"PAPA I WAS WAITING FOR YOU, DON'T LEAVE ME ANYMORE"
I WAS SHOCKED HEARING THAT
AND ASKED
"AREN'T YOU ASHAMED THAT YOUR PAPA WAS A GANGSTER"
SHE SAID"I FOUND OUT THAT YOU HAD LEFT BEING A GANGSTER, AFTER I WAS BORN ,YOU HAD CHOSEN THE RIGHT PATH AND SO I AM HERE WITH YOU"
I WAS HAPPY THAT TO THIS DAY SHE HAD BECAMEIKIND PERSON AND AM PROUD TO SHOW HER OFF AS MY DAUGHTER , MY OWN CHILD
I AM TAKING AN OATH OF LEAVING THE BAD SIDES FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
TO BE
HAPPY WITH
MY DAUGHTER

I am tired and tired of
Listening to ****** ****
Those lousy *****
About myself
And my personality
Judging by the character
Judging by the looks
Judging by the hair colour
Judging by the face
The first look
Oh yes!
The very first look
Why do you even Judge me??
Am I not a human?
Am I inferior to you?
I always thought
We could be family
I always thought
we could be best mom and daughter
Then there you go
Begging for forgiveness
And
Walking away like
Like
I am nothing
What is your problem?
If I dance and sing on the road
You scream
If I play you scream
If I help people
You scream
Is that it??
You screaming is  acceptable
While I
While whatever I do
Is a bother
I am tired of being scolded
On little things
I may be slow
But I can do it right
You don't have to
Meddle in my work
And I
If I want to go the party
Then
Why do you always have to stop me?
Is that it??
I know I know
At party I may have  liquor
But I promise you that
I won't have a drop of liquor
But that won't convince you
My brother
Yea my brother
If he wanted to go party
You allow him
You also allow him to treat me
Treat me like a ****
You let him do everything
While I
While I am trash bag
Whom you can throw
Why?
Why do you always have to
Make me work
Even at the time of exams
While my brother
Laughs at lousy video
He is acceptable
And
I am not
I am tired of you scolding me
Yea I have an alien face
Yea I have a bad set of
BREAST
yea you complain about it being
Big
Where are your motherly
Concerns??
I had to ask my friend mom
About having myself a bra
Are you paranoid??
Are you kind??
Oh!
What am I even asking, haha
"Mom mom mom
I am first in exams"  
You don't care
When my brother pass the exam
Party
You don't need a freaking party just
About being pass in exam
I am tired of you
I am tired of you
But today I am happy
Cause my Papa is
Gonna be here
You can say that
He is different from mom
He doesn't say much
But mom doesn't say anything
In front of Papa
I love him
Today he came from London
Business stuff
He is a handsome man
My life's man
I told him I aced the exam
He was happy and
got me a great  set of earrings
Wow
Papa
Please don't leave
I say
But but
He will not stay
He has work
But last night
He came to my room to sleep
With me
He asked
" Bebs care to let your ol papa
Sleep with you"
But of course I said yes
He made me feel so much better
He always say
Bebs overcome the world
Because you can do it
You are not a lousy ****
You are my daughter
My precious diamond
And
Yes as always
I try to overcome the world
I try hard
Practice
Because it makes you perfect
I will definitely overcome the world
And be your best girlfriend
Papa
Cause you are my handsome hunk
And I your Cinderella
If you remember that
I will definitely overcome
Overcome my obstacles
To overcome the world

The world is an illusion
Full of illusions
When you cry the joys of winning
Someone is crying  the loss
The loss they have beared
That's  why I say
World is an
An illusion
You never realize that
The way you act
The way
You behave
Is also an
Illusion
That helps
To make you reach
Higher  consciousness  
AND
In the end of time
You realize this very
Fact
Only after you
After you reach
End of your life journey
So
Reality is not what you see
Reality is what you
You are send to find about
When the life force
Leaves your soul
You decide
A new path
To find the truth of the
Very same life force
You realize the fact
That whilst living
A life of illusions
You never realized  it
That you are living in it
You create a new yourself
And when the time comes
Illusions  and false redemption
Will cover you making you
Useless
And
You are captured by a new illusion
And new life force emerges within
And finally
You
You forget  living a life
Full of illusions
And live in
A
New illusion
Created to
Spellbound  you
Until  
You reach
The end of the
Journey  once again

Different  people see things different way
its the imagination that makes us big not money
just as  Thomas Elva Edison thought about bulb
we think things our way
it's  just the way of philosophy
we tend to forget the life we get is precious
we forget to appreciate and thank sun and air
FOR
for providing  us with their power, positive energy
because we forget that every big imagination is philosophy
we are born  with philosopher's stone
but it gets eroded day by day we grow
someone who polishes the stone becomes the philosopher
but most of us don't because
the society teaches us the way without philosophy
we should not take the world for granted
we should thank everything for
playing their part in our life
the world is  normal as we see
the world is wild with bewilderment as philosopher's see
so do you take the world for granted??

let me feel again warmth of your body
that brought me to the way i am now
the way it is now because of you
like a tornado you came
and blew my normal life
Now
To live without you has become impossible
So
let me feel again that curly hair
the same curly hair that i twisted
twisted in your love
let me feel again those chest
those chest that you put my head against
let me feel again those memorable moments
AGAIN AND AGAIN
i wonder where you are
and where you will be
i think i want those hands to caress me once again
once again i want those soft chest to meet my head
again i want  those soft lips to meet my
again and again i want those soft lap to meet my head
but this time i want to do
to do
all those things that i could not do it previously
this time i want to go all the way with you
to make love to you
to show the world how passionate we are
we are when we are together
i want to show the world that how cool  
we look with each other
i want to feel those memorable time again
this time i do not want it as a bad memory
this time i want it as a happy memory
so baby please
PLEASE LET ME FEEL AGAIN
LET ME FEEL AGAIN

I always would think  it over and over
that what i feared the most
actually i found that i feared being feared
i feared over thinking
I feared not trying hard enough
still i fear
that someday i have to  do it
some day i have to jump from the altitude i fear
create a path filled with ghost and vampires
even though i fear
I      I
move to get the ultimate power
I seek the power to rule over the fear
I  want to be promising to other
not fearing
even if thieves attack
but i seek
I seek for the eternal soulmate
the spirits that will give me power to overcome
these fear
the knife that can cut the knife of fear
basically what i want is
is to overcome fear
that can only happen if i try

rain,rain falter away
my little son wants to play
he doesn't want rain to come
because
no little children will come to his home
rain rain go away
my little son wants to play
its hardly his first day of holiday
please don't come and make it a gloomy day
i know you are needed for our living
but its sad to make a boy unhappy as a nature being
where where the trees are green
my child knows that you are in need
i want to see my field growing
with your water and my nurturing
i want to see maize wheat barley growing
with your water and my animals hardworking
i want to keep my child happy
and send him out because he is naughty
so
rain,rain falter away
my little son wants to play