HE IS MY BABYSITTER
AND I AM THE BABY
EVEN THOUGH HE CARED ME
LIKE I AM HIS BABY
WHY DOES HE ADORES ME SO MUCH??
WHY DOES HE KEEP ME HAPPY SO MUCH???
I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT AND
I DOUBT THAT I WILL EVER FIND
SUCH A BABY SITTER WHO WILL NEVER MIND
REALLY NEVER MIND CLEANING MY **** AND WASHING MY BODY
AS YOU SEE
MY FATHER WAS A WORKAHOLIC
NEVER FOUND TIME FOR ME
MY MOM WAS A NATURAL ALCOHOLIC
NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT ME
THE BABYSITTER
HE
HE PLAYED WITH ME
HE WATCHED ME OVER
SO THAT I DO NOT FALL
HE HELPED ME
IN EACH AND EVERY STEP WHERE I NEEDED
NEEDED MY REAL PARENT
HE WAS THERE LIKE A
A REAL PARENT
EVEN IF IT WAS A
PROGRAM IN WHICH I PARTICIPATED
EVEN IF IT WAS PARENTS MEETING
OR EVEN SO IT BE TAKING ME
OUT FOR EATING
HE WAS THERE
WHEN THE THUNDER CLAPS IT'S LIGHT
AND I CRY WITH FEAR
HE WAS THERE
I ADORED HIM HIM LIKED HIM
WISHED HE WERE TO BE
MY REAL PARENT
  SCOLDED ME
EVEN MY TEACHER SCOLDED ME
BUT HE KISSED ME IN CHEEKS
LICKED MY TEAR
AND WOULD
WOULD BE HAPPY IN MY ACHEIVEMENT
IN EVERY SENSE HE WAS LIKE MY REAL PARENT
SO HOW CAN I NOT TELL
I LIKED HIM MORE THAN MY
MY ACTUAL PARENTS
SO HOW CAN I NOT TELL
I LOVED HIM MORE THAN MY
MY ACTUAL PARENTS

I A WANDERER
VISIT DIFFERENT PLACES
TO BECOME A FOLLOWER
OF THE NATURE
AND IT'S LOVELY ADVENTURE
I SEE HILLS   AND CLIFFS
THAT SAY
"DARE TO TRY ME OUT"
I SEE LAKE AND RIVERS
THAT  SAYS
"I AM LIKE FLOWING TIME"
AND I SEE MOTHER NATURE
CRYING FOR HELP
BECAUSE HER BODY IS DEPLETING
I SEE ANIMALS THAT
NEED MY HELP
LOVE,AFFECTION
I SEE INSECTS
THAT TRY TO HARM ME
AND INSECTS
WHO HELPS  ME
I SEE HUMAN
LARGE CITY PEOPLE
DIFFERENT RACES OF PEOPLE
I SEE SAD AND HOMELESS PEOPLE
BEGGARS AND RICH PEOPLE
THEN I SEE MYSELF
AND
MY LIFE AS
AS A WANDERER
AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT
I WILL BE IN NEXT LIFE
THEN I SEE
THE CREATOR OF THE WORLD
LOOKING CALM
AND SEEING  ALL OUR  REACTION
BUT HAS NOTHING TO SAY
THEN I  WANDER
AROUND THE WORLD
I SEE PLANTS , FLOWER AND
TREES
BEING DESTROYED
I SEE ANIMALS
VANISHING INTO THIN AIR
AND SLOWLY AS MY WANDERING
PERIOD COMES TO END
I SEE HUMANS
OLD, WEAK
HELPLESS
WITHOUT MOTHER NATURE
AND HER LOVELY  CHILDREN
EVERYONE KILLED BY HUMANS
AND I FEEL THE PEOPLE
THE PEOPLE HAUNTING  ME
LIKE I AM THEIR FOOD
SLOWLY I SEE THEY LOOK EACH OTHER AS
FOODS
AND FINALLY WHEN MY LIFE COMES
TO A END
I FEEL
THE  MOTHER NATURE DYING ALONG SIDE ME

Is it wrong to love
our siblings
having a ****** relationship
is it that this was the forbidden fruit
then why did the Hindu god married his own daughter
why did the generation married children smaller than their age
should not they be captured and be held as well
why??
even if someone loved ,had a relation with their own blood line
why??
DO
the society hates this so much
why does it tell us
this relationship cannot bloom
bloom into existence
i say we are all son and daughter of gods
then why does not he allows it
why did Bramha  married Saraswati goddess
why did  Zeus and Hera
brother and sister got married
why  did our mother
breast fed us to only show that
it cannot be done afterwards
tell us why?????
In Norse mythology, why did
Loki accuses Freyr and Freyja of committing ******,
  He  says that Njörðr had Freyr with his sister.
Reply me
if this is wrong now then
why wasn't it before
if you had to ask me
****** is okay
okay if both parties agree
even if it's brother and sister
or is it mother and brother
mother or son
daughter and father
daughter and mom
even cousions
its okay if both party agrees
there is love
everywhere
no one can deny love
love for each other
so
what if the government
sued us
what if they killed us
we never stop loving each other
does the love for each other fade away
NO
it does not so why
why do people hate
marriage between bloodlines
between Muslim and Hindu
why do we hate each other
answer me????

when i get home
I realize that my father is there
holding and caressing my little sister
and not even looking at me
I feel like i am alone
i run upstairs like a athlete
not wanting to see it
but my hungry stomach does not allows it
slowly walking down
i see they haven't finished it
why ??
why does he not love me like my little sister
why??
does he hate me

TODAY
I am wild with fury and anger
today i will  hit her
my little sister and
slap her like nobody else
so, so so
i pulled her hair
slapped across her face
but then my dad slapped my face
i did not care about that
i bite her trying to beat
the crap out of her
i did not realize that
i was willing to beat my little sister
but then my dad pushed me
and
started yelling at me while caressing her
seeing this i kicked on my little sis legs
and she wailed out
crying
then taking initiative
my dad got up from his place
grabbed my arms
and then
took me upstairs
pushing me inside
he yelled at me saying
"you ! how dare you beat my daughter, your little sis like that"
"you are not welcome in my family anymore"
i spoke"I wanted you  , you to be my side
wanted you to kiss me hold me like you do to her
am I asking the inferior thing"
he said "even if that was the reason
you should not have done that"
i said "i know and i am sorry"
then
he looked at me  with fury in his face
 and then raised his hand to slap me
i knew he was gonna hit me
but  then he grabbed  and pulled me into his arm
and said "you could have asked that"
he hugged me tight
and kissed my cheek
and just slightly kissed my lips
and told me"this kiss is our secret,
so now apologize to your little sister"
i was more than happy so i asked "can I get my kisses and hugs anytime I want"
he replied me by kissing and hugging me
then suddenly i realized
the person who secretly send me birthday gift was him
the fairy who looked after me when i was sick was him
the one who held my hands during thunder was him
oh! god why did not realized it sooner
i was dumber than I thought i was
slowly walking down the spiral staircase
i asked my sister for forgiveness
and she  forgave me
then( aftermath)
i walked into kitchen finding my father
cooking dinner
i asked "do you need any help"
and he directed me what to do
we were a happy family
and we are still a happy family

the beat of the drum
the melody of guitar
the harmony of the musician
creates a new taste for singers
and those who hear it
the slow classical
or may be the rock
ya ya
it's created on a  sole  purpose
satisfying the customer
satisfying the viewers
the harmony created from with
the mixed musical instrument
it makes you think twice about a song
makes you dance with the melody
it does not care if you dance well
it will show you the perfect refreshment
to this extent have god  used instrument too
have played with many beats and
it shows the different color
vibrant of each other
it's like a mix of seasoning
to create a beautiful curry
so with the creation of
harmonic melody
you we create a music work

we are growing closer
and closer to our consciousness
closer to our self being
we grow closer
when we realize to appreciate
to appreciate our existence and
our work
we understand our self when
when we listen to our inner voices
Try to ask questions
to yourself and see
Compare the result and see
it will make a better
Path
to our existence
so we need to understand our self
BEFORE
BEFORE analyzing others
BEFORE understanding others
we have to JUDGE ourself
before judging others
we have to know our real self
and work together for our achievement
we cannot win half heartedly
we cannot achieve alone
we have to achieve together
with our other half,
our conscious being
we do not realize
that we are two side of a coin
coin without which  we do not work
we fight for unecessary things
so considering it
i say
we must work together
so realize your
other half
and make it a better
half
to CREATE A BETTER YOU

It's my birthday
the day i was born
the day i came
out of my mom's womb
I can understand those feeling
and i am happy to  have been  born
in a new world
n i wonder where i was before that

So, to celebrate my birthday
Today i want a cake
strawberry and chocolate
engraved my name within
i want a cake with beautiful carvings
and chocolate chips to topple it with

I want a chocolate Muffin
with vanilla icecream
with strawberry on top
I want to bite on the Muffin
and let the cream flow
down my chin
and i would tastily,greedily
lick it up my fingers

i want the cake to be fed to me
fed to me by others
I want to get surprised
by the cake
that others brought me
i want to get presents
like others do
i want to feel
what it is to be able
to do those things

So i think i want my
birthday cake very special
so special that i cry
because of it
so,so,so
just a little flow of the cream to
finish satisfy my little
hungry tummy
just to understand that
it's my birthday
and i got a cake