How do I explain
The 37 years
of rejection
That I have carried
Alone
In my heart
And now that I know who you are
I don't want to know you
-
A lifetime has passed
In a single moment
There's nothing left to rhyme

Woe are my dreams
And woe that is naught
In time though it seems
All is forgot

I could write a thousand words
Just summarizing what I read between yours
But I don't, or I won't
I think it's time to let "this"
ride off into the sunset
The horizon has been patient
and enough is probably enough
So, I'll say goodbye
For now, or forever I guess
I think the only lesson
We are meant to learn in life
Is how to let go

And so I write
These lines, they leech
These feelings, they speak
And I just, need
A gentle caress
A love, not less
My heart, it breathes
My breath, it needs
And I mourn and bleed for these things that I need
I grasp at the wind as the restlessness sinks in
And I always come back
Around to this pen

I want to love you
But your walls, I can’t

My God
I just want to kiss you
But you don't exist
Can you taste
These lips

And so I sit, listening
Music plays and I…
I feel
And I think, “This song is you”
And I wonder who you are now
I wonder if you were ever real
If the emotions were real
Why can’t I let go