thoughts float by
like dandelion seeds
on the restless winds
azure speckled eyes
like painted butterflies
lost in turbid skies
over fields of tamarind
in violent haze
the copper sun gaze
upon sepia days
sanguine visions underpinned
none shall know
the crimson blood souls
but the black jet crows
eyeing gnarled ancient men
supporting ivory vibrant clouds
still paying for their sins

S.S.R.I.s placebos and lies
caught in between generations
I've come to despise

flanked by blatant hypocrisy
pestered by whining naivety

the resultant mental infarct
stented only by seeking
obligatory consolation in art

It's lovely that you're gathered here together
with so many nice things to say
flattered that you all look your best
in your suits and shiny black frocks
I'd have a few things to say, mind you...

If I could get out of this box

I found a teardrop in the ocean
and cupped it in my hands
as it ebbed through my cockled fingers
I heard you call my name
I turned expectantly to face you
and all I saw was sand

She....
came for me today
I felt her cold icy fingers
grip my heart
and begin to close my eyes
I begged
for one more day
to say goodbye
a moment
to put things right
I pleaded
had she never loved
and felt the pain of loss
her frozen eyes
chilled my frantic soul
her tears of pearl
cascading shards
of diamond glass
splintering my soul
an empathy with death
I felt
the sorrow
carried on her breath
I awoke
to see your face
I held you close
in my trembling arms
in the corner
over your shoulder

my death waits...

Referencing Cobain
weak and shallow
borrow the id
feed on the marrow
eclectic minds
contemplate
infinite feeling
borrowed
from the library
of thought
and meaning
the epitome
of Generation X
an addled confusion
love drugs
and ***
obsessed by allusions
allegorical
contusions
and who to quote next

I'm outside of myself
looking in
at all of me
my Original Sin
ruminating on what's left
getting in
healing the child
and appeasing the man
objective collective
perspective
understanding
the conditions of worth
internal committee
governing
organic self
confined to house arrest
discipline rejected
rebellion
abusing you
internal counsellor