I like picking up where you left me off
Unfortunately
I feel that I need your
Validation
Every time I open one of your snaps
it’s like a mini celebration
And it’s a one to two word response
Not worth the
anticipation
Not worth the anxiety of not knowing
If you’ll ever respond
The amount you care shows
I was starting to think that maybe
you were the one
asking “where are you?” as I laid alone
holding myself
as I always do.
Tell me Goodbye.

“Don’t leave.” On repeat

Over and over in my head
My bed is empty
You left
You’re the last person
I’ll let sleep next to me
I’m wide awake
I watched you sleep
you know?
I didn’t move, and I tried not to breath too
Heavily
I let you sleep
You slept, and moved violently
I look forward to seeing you again
I’ll keep saying I love you
Even if you’re gone

Tell me to shut up, give up and move on
It’s possible to shove me out of the door
that’s apparent.
You could have told me
You didn’t want me, or that I’m not what you’re looking for
It’s not hard
Let me take care of you
but
I can’t, Cuz I’m a mess
as my heart breaks and suggests
I miss you.
you’re cruel
Don’t tell you me you’ve been crying
Because you’re stressed
When you know you can come here
And lay your head on my chest
I’ll hold you until your eyes close, as
I
run my fingers through your hair.

Tell me to shut up, give up and move on.
let me go.

Anxiety is the enemy. You crumble and forfeit all of the good things that come your way.
You overthink
Thinking becomes a chore.
I’ll walk away
Over and over again
They’re not the only reason why I fall into my pillow at night
Saturating the clean linens with my tears
It’s my failures that shine through my fears
The pain you’re in reaches deep
and you no longer need my company
Now I’m suffocating, but happy
It’s unfair to assume I don’t care
When all I wanted was...
you
Minus the lingering feeling of despair.

You make me feel
Like the words inside of my head
Are useless and better left unsaid
It’s a good thing
Malignant words that are hurtful
I’m trying not to get into trouble again
I purposely let you control my mind
sometimes
And Sometimes was always letting you in
And never telling you no
Which is a nice thing
It was a lovely thing
Your magnificent action changed the course
Of my life
I’m holding on this time
To the right actions and words
He said “ I don’t know why you feel this way.
You’re so pretty.”
Jessica is soooo pretty...
and
scared of failure, being alone and riddled with doubt
It was nice, good, and lovely
So hold me