Scars
My scars on my body are small little reminders that life is real
There on my arms, on my chest, my legs
Some are shallow reminders of how life was without you
Some are canyons and valleys and cave in my arm of times when I had you
They remind me that you werent the one.
The one would have stayed with me,
The one would have clean my scars
Not add more to the collection
The one would have woke up at 5:32 in the morning to take a walk with me
The one would have fought for me
Not run away as soon as things were getting worse
I wanted you to be the one so bad that I changed the way I was
What I liked
Who I acted like
You put 100s of scars on my body
Some you can't see, That I’ll always have
Scars that won't fade
Blades are hidden in songs, in places, in memories of us together
Blades that are on the corner of linden ave and forest drive
Blades that cut straight to the bone
Some of my scars will eventually fade away and only be small memoires
But the scars you left will never go away.
Now the cave, canyons, and valleys that once had blood flowing through them every night
Are now dried up
There are still there lying doment and only hold memories
And temptation to open them up again to feel you again.
Still you where the clever that cut into my heart
You were the one that distorted  my somewhat stable foundtaion
But I still want you
If you were to text me and ask me if I wanted to come over and watch a movie
I would come over in a matter of seconds
I still care about you
People say that your ex is meant to stay your ex
I don't see you as my ex
I see you as a friend that I cant talk to till August 1st
I hope that one day
Someday
We can be friends
Will that day ever come or am I just a daydreamer
Am I just a person that wants you still after everything you've do done to me
After the hell you put me though
I still love you
Do you ever love me?