I'm sorry for telling you my feelings.
I apologize for thinking you could handle me.
I'm sorry for thinking you understood me.
I'm sorry that I don't believe your words you speak.
All I can do now is say I'm sorry!

Because I believed you

I believed that you would truly love me.
I believed I wasn't your burden when I truly was.
I believed all the fake *** love notes.
I believed you wanted my soul, when you just wanted my body.
You saw me as only a prize horse to brag about to your friends.
But I still believed that you wouldn't give up on me.

**I'm sorry I believed...

I am no longer myself.
I left that poor ******* the shelf.
Everyone wonders why she left.
But when she explains they all seem deaf.

No longer can she express happiness.
These things that's taking over...
She has to let it do its job.
She has no one to run to anymore.
The people she thought she knew so well
Has left her in the dark.
They left her with her heart shattered
And her hands tied behind her back.

You ever have those days?

Where someone just seems to understand how upset you are?

They understand you need someone even for a split second?

They cover your ears just for that moment so you can't hear those demons.

They know that you just need some peace and tranquility even though it wont last long

*My ray of sunshine

I'm not a happy person.
Can't you see?
Its just not easy for me to be happy.
Why can't you seem to get that?
I try to tell you in every form of communication.
But still you don't get it!?
I don't know what else to say.
Do you not believe me?

Why was it me? Why isn't my best not enough? I gave you something I can never get back... But yet its not enough. Time after time I gave you ever piece of me. I give you the last remaining pieces of my heart but that's not enough. Why must I beg you to accept me? Why can't myself be enough?

I sit there thinking what did I do? So I just messed up everything by telling him how I feel. Isn't that what I'm suppose to do.. Tell the man that I love what is going down inside my head. He looks at me like I'm some kind of monster. Like I am too crazy, foolish, and disgusting. I don't know how else to make things better other than leave him alone like he wants me to. But why would I want to do that? Why would I leave this person who I gave my heart to over something so simple? Well I guess I should do it to make him happy right... But just know... I will never forget you.

You gotta do it
There's no hiding it anymore.
But it doesn't make you weak.
It only shows just how strong you are.
You're not alone out there.
There are many like you.
There's no need to worry.
*Just cry love

I can't explain it... This boy... No this man gets to me. He finds his way into the deepest corners of my mind and just sits there. I have no idea how he got there really.... All I know is he's just there learning about what makes me me. What makes me whole... I really don't know if he is going to be my downfall or if he will help me rise..

He makes this game called life fun.
He makes getting up in the morning easier.
He makes my life seem better
He pushes me, motivates me to do my best.
I don't ever want to lose his love..
If I do I shall be uncompelete.

My head... My thoughts can no longer continue
* I'm afraid I must go