To tell the truth
I live in pain
There is part of me missing
And I will never be the same

To tell the truth
I’m ashamed of some of the things I have done
I have lived in a sea of regret
Over what I let myself become

To tell the truth
It doesn’t matter to me
That other people have done worse
I never intended to be anyone’s curse

To tell the truth
It’s still hard to look in the mirror
The reflection is blurry
But forgiveness makes it clearer

To tell the truth
Unconditional love is real
Although very rare
It’s much more than what you feel

To tell the truth
I cry everyday
There is crippling pain
That just won’t go away

To tell the truth
I can be selfish and unkind
I won’t make excuses
Fear can make you go blind

To tell the truth
I never thought I would live this long
I think every day
Am I singing the last verse of my song?

To tell the truth
My daughter is now a wife
She is powerful, smart and frail
Being her Dad has been the great joy of my life

To tell the truth
I have no future plan
I try to stay positive
And spread love where I can

To tell the truth
I hold on to hope
For love and happiness
It helps me to cope

To tell the truth
I’m scared of dying
If I said I was sure where I was going
I would be lying

To tell the truth
I try too hard to please
The fear of rejection
Brings me to my knees

To tell the truth
I know I’m not a bad guy
God is always reassuring me
Not to buy into that lie

To tell the truth
You are defined by your choices
The hard part for me
Has been discerning the voices

To tell the truth
I was created to spread love and to be free
I will never give up
And spread the love that’s been shared with me

I like what I like
I love from within
I am unique in my taste
I fit in my skin

I am far from perfect
And I’ve made bad choices
I’ve hurt people I love
And I still hear their voices

I’ve got more days behind
Than future days
But at least I’ve learned
That being flawed is okay

For most of my life
Fear has been my guide
Fear of rejection and shame
And a false sense of pride

I’ve never been accused
Of being great or gifted
When I tried to focus on myself
My attention always drifted

When you are told
From the time you can first understand
That you are without worth or value
Your worth hangs by a strand

The book of my life
Has lots of blank pages
The early chapters are complete
But life comes in stages

I still have a lot to learn
And a lot of love to give
And I’m excited to pursue
The life God wants me to live

I don’t know that I’m deep
I don’t know what you see
The important thing
Is that I’m okay with me

To those that see my heart
And the love that lives within
Thank you for accepting
The guy that lives in my skin

As each day passes
And your thoughts start to stray
Time passes so slowly
The hurt won’t go away

You try to accept
What was found and then lost
You’d give anything to go back
No matter the cost

She came out of nowhere
One day she was there
She shined where she walked
And gold waved in her hair

We laughed and we cried
Her smile was divine
I looked in her eyes
And my heart beat for the first time

We shared and we shared
I hope she can understand
That she created a new life
When she first held my hand

Sitting by the fire
Staring in her eyes
The world seemed to stop
And time was a disguise

It does no good to dwell
On how deep the pain goes
You get good at covering it up
But the scar still shows

She made me feel loved
For the very first time
Like a shroud had been lifted
The world turned on a dime

Her body just glowed
With the spirit inside
It was wonderous to see
The love you can’t hide

I miss her so much
But that’s life you see
And all I can do now
Is focus on me

I don’t know
If she’ll ever look back
But in case she does
I’ll get my life on track

Until the day comes
Our paths cross like streams
I’ll look forward to rest
And find her face in my dreams

The moment comes
When consciousness breaks
A new day offers
Distance from the past days mistakes

The view is hazy
And hope is faint
But you put on a smile
And the clothes of a saint

Then feelings rush in
To your heart and your mind
Like an avalanche of pain
There is no peace you can find

You are quickly reminded
Of the life that you live
Without love or support
You have nothing to give

Searching for crumbs
You are desperate to eat
Looking for favor
In the face of defeat

You think you will starve
Then a crumb falls your way
Enough to keep you alive
For maybe one more day

You know it’s your fault
You have made some poor choices
So the screaming gets louder
From the inside voices

The pain is so loud
It is all you feel
If someone would just care
You could begin to heal

The day wears on
And the clock hands sway
You look forward to sleep
To the start of a new day

Your bones don’t ache
From the work of the day
But your body still hurts
The pain won’t go away

You remember what was
And the warmth of her touch
She was everything you wanted
You loved her so much

Your insides melt
And the water flows
Your heart splits in half
But that’s life I suppose

As night approaches
And your vision gets dim
You pray for God’s peace
That can only come from him

You see her face in your dreams
And you hear her sweet voice
Your heart is renewed
And confirms your hearts choice

As each day wears on
And the cycle repeats
You carry hope in your heart
And it will never retreat

If dreams are your road
And your one way to feel
Let rest be your muse
Let it help you to heal

No matter what method
You choose to cope
Don’t ever lose heart
Don’t ever lose hope

There is love all around
Whether asleep or awake
It’s there just for you
Just choose to partake

There is true power
More than can be spoken
In the power of love
It can’t ever be broken