As rain pours down my window, as nights sheath corrupts the sky, I am alone. Trying to travel deep into my mind, I seem to have the same thing on every level, you. The deeper I go the harder the rain falls. Looking out my window I see a blur of lights and hear the sound of rain as it showers down upon the ground. Ignoring the pain I feel in my heart I try to calm myself by saying everything will be okay, for I do not know what is becoming of me, but more importantly us. My self reluctance is falling down with the rain, waiting for the storm to stop. Stricken pain shatters against my heart bearing no mercy to it's devastating blow. As an attempt to mend the pain it spreads throughout my veins to disperse into my body. The pain is still strong, digging further to find an answer to this searing agony. Relieved when I open a secret chapter in my heart, finding truthful but saddening fasts about myself and why this misery keeps attacking me. Discovering I have a strong desire for perfection I struggle to accept it, as for I am also a crazy jealous person, I believe this is the reason why it stings like a ***** to hear about other people and especially them exceeding me. I can see past all the ******* lies and fibs to try not to hurt my feelings so I may be bearable. I understand now what I am, I wish I could just be made for you but I can't, this is how we improve us, this is how we become more loving. I need you I want you because it's you and me against the world and I will not let down until we are in the ground. I fully, truly, honestly, consistently, unconditionally love you forever; if I had to choose between loving you or dying, I would use my last breath to say I love you because it's you and me.