Confused, scared, I am filled with these mixed emotions.
Looking left and right all I find is a never ending ocean we call life.
Writing the diary of my life to only be another person throwing it away in this vast ocean.
Trying to not walk through life as a ghost blending into this ocean I look for my own way.
I want a future after death to help others find their way as I seek to do for myself.
For now I am only drifting, slowly on a plank of wood drawing closer into midst of the ocean.
Pushed back by waves I try to find a larger vessel that will throw the waves aside.
Finally I find explorers like myself aboard a fairly large ship, as they allow me to board it.
They pull out a map and inform me of their plan to safely make it across this ocean.
Sailing along I notice an interesting island and suggest we explore it.
First rejecting the thought I persuade them to take a risk, as we wash up on shore.
On the island we find gold, fresh water, food, shelter, and many other things as well as dangerous animals.
Well worth the risk we tried the same thing on another island but found a new disease that killed some of our crew.
Discouraged, we finished crossing the ocean as we look back on our lives, we had good times, terrible times, decent times, but we made it.
Finishing my last line in my diary darkness turns to light as I cast my journal into the ocean and watch it drift away as I fade...

Swept away like a gust of wind that flows right through my heart I am paralyzed.
Unable to move I close my eyes wondering if this moment is real.
Consumed by feeling ecstatic I awaken, eyes staring right into yours.
Suddenly struck by reality; realizing this moment is real a rush of happiness spreads through my veins.
As if a balloon swelled up in my chest, my heart beats rapidly, calming as our lips meet.
Taking my breath away all my worries drift away into the midst of time only to be flown back to me after we part ways.
Never wanting to leave you I feel as if my heart turns to stone for this great burden holds me as you disappear from view.
You are my hope, my lighthouse when I am lost, for I know you will be there when I need you, forever.
Always with you to never leave my mind, heart, soul...I am with you, forever.

As daylight is consumed by darkness I find a path lay before me.
Signs cover the entrance saying "DANGER, CAUTION, CONSTRUCTION"...
However one sign catches my attention the most, "joy"
Starting on the path I find it covered with rocks, sticks, vines, dust, and cracks.
Aside from the broken path there is yet one solid line.
No matter how hard I try I fail to keep my balance.
Tumbling on cracks, falling down every now and then.
Desperate for a lifeline I use all my strength to get up.
Starting to scar..bruises now covering my body.
A small but bright light shines a few steps in front of me.
Only tumbling a little I reach the light.
There I find you waiting for me as if the path was planned.
Sudden faith strikes me as I get up and hold you.
Continuing the path I notice it is different than before.
The crack and bumps I keep falling upon suddenly fades away.
Almost a full solid path appears with little cracks in it.
With you I can take the little hurtful parts in this path.
Through thick and thin I still need you. Forever.