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Nathan P Oct 2013
Sitting on the curb
Tears falling harder than the rain
I watch cars go by
Wishing I was in front of one
Waiting..
Feeling..
Hurting..
I can no longer take the wait
Drowning in this darkness
I look for hope
Finding nothing
I am alone
Alone..
This feeling hurts the most
Knowing this pain can fade..
Death..
Yes..
Death would be a sweet relief
When will this nightmare end?
Unable to stand I crawl into the street
Waiting once more..
Waiting for this agony to end
Waiting for my pain and suffering to cease
Waiting for death...
A car approaches me
The last tear falls
The car hits me as the tear meets the ground
I awaken
Next to you
I no longer feel the need to cry
My tears have dried
For it was only a nightmare
  Brought back to reality
I am once more in my dream
Moonlight shining on us as the sky brightens with stars
My dream...with you.
No more tears. For the last tear is behind me now.
Nathan P Oct 2013
Confused, scared, I am filled with these mixed emotions.
Looking left and right all I find is a never ending ocean we call life.
Writing the diary of my life to only be another person throwing it away in this vast ocean.
Trying to not walk through life as a ghost blending into this ocean I look for my own way.
I want a future after death to help others find their way as I seek to do for myself.
For now I am only drifting, slowly on a plank of wood drawing closer into midst of the ocean.
Pushed back by waves I try to find a larger vessel that will throw the waves aside.
Finally I find explorers like myself aboard a fairly large ship, as they allow me to board it.
They pull out a map and inform me of their plan to safely make it across this ocean.
Sailing along I notice an interesting island and suggest we explore it.
First rejecting the thought I persuade them to take a risk, as we wash up on shore.
On the island we find gold, fresh water, food, shelter, and many other things as well as dangerous animals.
Well worth the risk we tried the same thing on another island but found a new disease that killed some of our crew.
Discouraged, we finished crossing the ocean as we look back on our lives, we had good times, terrible times, decent times, but we made it.
Finishing my last line in my diary darkness turns to light as I cast my journal into the ocean and watch it drift away as I fade...
Nathan P Oct 2013
Swept away like a gust of wind that flows right through my heart I am paralyzed.
Unable to move I close my eyes wondering if this moment is real.
Consumed by feeling ecstatic I awaken, eyes staring right into yours.
Suddenly struck by reality; realizing this moment is real a rush of happiness spreads through my veins.
As if a balloon swelled up in my chest, my heart beats rapidly, calming as our lips meet.
Taking my breath away all my worries drift away into the midst of time only to be flown back to me after we part ways.
Never wanting to leave you I feel as if my heart turns to stone for this great burden holds me as you disappear from view.
You are my hope, my lighthouse when I am lost, for I know you will be there when I need you, forever.
Always with you to never leave my mind, heart, soul...I am with you, forever.
Nathan P Oct 2013
As daylight is consumed by darkness I find a path lay before me.
Signs cover the entrance saying "DANGER, CAUTION, CONSTRUCTION"...
However one sign catches my attention the most, "joy"
Starting on the path I find it covered with rocks, sticks, vines, dust, and cracks.
Aside from the broken path there is yet one solid line.
No matter how hard I try I fail to keep my balance.
Tumbling on cracks, falling down every now and then.
Desperate for a lifeline I use all my strength to get up.
Starting to scar..bruises now covering my body.
A small but bright light shines a few steps in front of me.
Only tumbling a little I reach the light.
There I find you waiting for me as if the path was planned.
Sudden faith strikes me as I get up and hold you.
Continuing the path I notice it is different than before.
The crack and bumps I keep falling upon suddenly fades away.
Almost a full solid path appears with little cracks in it.
With you I can take the little hurtful parts in this path.
Through thick and thin I still need you. Forever.
Nathan P Oct 2013
Always With You
Between life and death we lay here
Disguised by our love
You are the piece of me that I can't leave
I still fear who I am; feeling nothing without you
Shocking my heart to life when we touch
Feeling alive with you, nothing else matters
Born again within you every day
Scared yet joyful I find myself in you
Waking up into the unknown I am at rest only with you..
I wake up every morning feeling like i'm not enough for you
You are my clarity
The only thing I could ever want or need is YOU
Its okay to be afraid; you are not alone for I am always by your side
Now and forever
You belong with me
Only two words can describe how I feel about you..
I love you
love is one word, you and I are one

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