Been alone for to long
I just can't move on
You say it's okay but what I been doing is wrong
Yea I been blowin out my steam
I guess you never did knew what I mean
I got issues why the ******* think I smoke
If you don't understand me you never read a thing I wrote
I'm sorry girl I'm not like other guys I am different
I don't wanna be alone or nor make a commitment
But I won't blame you if you moved on moved on moved on
I'll be thinking about you till I see the break of dawn.

Its hard to understand the unspoken
Devotion to become one of the chosen
They take the ones we love the most
But humans also shove souls to ghost
Will depression last forever
Till i pull the lever of my own endeavor
To love the one in the reflection
And choose my direction
To be eternalized to satisfy
The saddest lie that death will just multiply
But who's next and who's does it effect
The ones with passion and the most respect
Therapy shows that mentally
We create hate through jealousy
Please understand the comprehension
Im not asking for your likes or your attention
Because i know you see it even through poor vision
But the choice to make things better is your decision.

I tired shrooms, Beer, and LSD,
Aint nothing better or can compare to ****,
Showed me how to zone out and fly,
See the world different as my worries pass by,
Showed me my life is a book as i turned a page,
Still having trouble when my demons come out the cage,
And the devil talks to me and tells me about his life,
How fun it was to take away actors, teens, fathers, and even wives,
All of these dreams i have when i close my eyes,
Everything I love slowly dies,
He tells me to not look for love cause its hard to find,
But dont worry cause i will always be in the back of your mind,
But baby i been feeling free since my birth,
Thinking of how it is when i finally leave earth,
But please baby dont worry about me,
Even tho i have issuse and worries that you cant see.

Keep that fire blazing, aint got no problems cause my girl is amazing, but troubles gonna be there just like my chores, high in a dream with no exit doors.

Head hurts cause i dont know whats real,
Gotta sit down and take my ADHD pills,
Feels like lighting hit my brain,
Shocking wazes through my veins,
Only got my depression to blame,
Was a kid alone basiclly lame,
Makes me feel immortal,
Travling through portals,
Thinking of the past,
So much but not a laugh.