I want to breath, the same air you exhale around me,
I want to sleep, to be well rested to be able to be there for you the best I can be,
I want to thrive work hard and touch the sky,
Running up the bag with my queen by my side,
I wanna eat and get stronger, smarter, better it is what I seek,
to be able to do it all properly,
I want to live,
for the family it is what I need you to remain to me,
through thick and thin baby do you understand me,
Tell me something,……?
when stress is high,
blissful once again when you are around me.
Missed this feeling and this time it’s different,
Too hold and cherish,
The love and comfort, loyalty with no limits baby you think I don’t see,
You are the woman I have been looking for,
In this labyrinth we call life it’s until the very end for me.

I want to live.

I wake up and everything seems dark and depressing,
dark shadow of a man appears laughing with a makeshift knife in one hand as well as ****** left hand,
I try and wake myself from the dream but unable to wake up the dream feels like reality,
I begin to run but am getting no where,
I feel stiff in the illusion I begin to cry as I feel sharp pain radiating through my body, as my body hits the floor I awaken covered in sweat thanking god it was only a dream.
Cheers to another day.

uneasiness sweet smells,
butterflies in my stomach prevail,
laughter good thoughts sunshine all day,
shes bright enough to light up cold nights,
I praise her as if she goes by the name Athena,
the goddess of love I see her my heart melts,
the nights aroma fills the air im at peace.

as the rays of sunlight shine upon me I feel complete,
all of my troubles and problems are out of mind for the moment,
the only thing that matters is life itself,
thinking about better days and great memories,
cant reminisce often or it brings me down..
...as if a rock is tied to my ankles and I'm told to swim.
Then it hits me again the sun is shining,
the wind is full of great smells,
Someone near by is BBQn ,then I smell the aroma of mary jane
in the next instant the sunshine feels brighter great days ahead!

I don't want this pain no moooo,
I don't want it to last noooo!
constant thoughts racing running, walking painfully
like a woman with high heels stepping all over me,
as the music plays everything slows down,
in that moment I am truly me I zone out as my favorite artist whales his pain out in the song I fall apart, Post Malones music brings me peace all the soul put into his songs I feel. I hope I have many days left if I have to leave this earth tonight I would go happily,
not suicidal but at peace with myself, elevated contemplation, good thoughts fill my head as I tell my self depression is temporary...pain is temporary...family is forever!

beautiful smells in the air sweet succulent light purple pedals,
the smell is calming....I spray some of the plants aroma on my pillow as I rest, later I wake to the smell of lavender in the air as my mother sprays the room with the lavender air freshener,
Im at PEACE....tranquility all my problems disappear instantaneously.

back to school mane....zipped up my trues,
laced up my shoes...just trying to improve, and move...up
...cant be stuck...only one way that's up,
that's us, contemplating evil desires, my angel on my shoulder I call her conscience. only one direction that's the COME UP

summer days
gone like a hays
will I remain, sane
only god knows my, PAIN
contemplating my deepest desires many dark thoughts
painful memories arise
inhale the good smoke exhale the *******
days turned to nights, moonlight touching my skin
I feel complete.