These memories
are mine
this house
is mine
this body
is mine

But it's all
tainted now
I thought it
was love

Used to stand tall
but now i'm small
what once was mine
is now yours too

You tainted it all
took more than I offered
wished me luck
but was my downfall

I thought it was love
but now I know
you lied
and it will never
be the same

When the lights go out
and you're all alone
you could run and hide

Or you could
learn to scare
and turn the tide

The things that
go bump in the night
are afraid of me

Because my trap
is more than just a simple snare
and the noose hangs from the tree

I used to want to run
until I learned what I could do
and now I'm what goes bump in the night

Learned to do more
than just run
and started to cause fright

Now they're all scared
of me because
I'm the monster now

Took the pain
they caused
and end it all with a bow

"I'll always love you"
until you don't
until you forget
the soft words
once spoken
so often
turn into something
bitter that's mine
no longer ours
a reminder of once was

"No matter what"
until I become annoying
until you can't understand
until patience turns to anger
and whispers into yelling
until soft hugs
once warm and safe
turn into hands to hide from
while I cover the bruises
what we used to have
might have been good
once
but not anymore

"No matter what you say"
until I say the wrong thing
until I don't know
until I disagree
until I'm too much
until I'm too loud
until it's too repetitive
until it's demanding
until it's everything
you wish I wasn't
and we can't turn back

"No matter what you do"
until it hurts
until it bleeds
until it bruises
until it breaks
until it falls apart
until whispers
until rumors
until trust is broken
until it's gone
until I forget
until I stop caring

"I'll love you anyway"
until you don't
until a promise
turns into a closed door
what used to be love
turns into something cold
and dead
there's no warmth
or laughter in these halls
only the ghosts
of our own regret
you hated breaking
promises
maybe it's because
it reminded you
you broke the most important one

I was so young
when you first said it
I believed you
but now
I'm not small
anymore
and now we don't agree
and now we don't love
I still care
but I can't stay
not when everything
hurts
not when I'm scared
for the day
that yelling becomes
hitting
for the day
your love
turns into
his hate
and my pain

They say the past is
simply in the past

That it's dead
and it stays there

But does it?
Does it stay there?

Our past never stays
locked away there

It lives on in the scars
on our skin and our lands

There's nothing about
it that chooses to remain

The past always
comes with us

It guides our hands
and tugs us along

We can't outgrow
what we used to know

And we won't forget
what we used to hold

There's no killing
what can't die

So learn to hold
the ghosts close

Before they learn
to drown you out

It takes two to tango
but that's when we broke
in the quiet I sat alone
missing what we had
before it all fell apart

It's in the quiet
vulnerable moments
that we lost what he had
starting to wish
I had never spoke
what I really thought

I said yes
because I never knew
how to say no
and that's when
you took it all
and I couldn't
let go

Time was what we needed
but never really had
a frantic dance
of passion and desire
and in it you took everything
and it was no surprise
when it all fell apart

We moved too quickly
fell apart
even faster
sometimes I wish
I could cling to what we still had
but it takes two
and that's why we broke

The sound of trains never stopped
I still hear the sound
like the first day you left me there
on the cursed platform
any chance at escape always
rushing past me
your words written on the walls
like some dying childhood
you wanted to have some legacy for

The sound of screaming never stopped
I can still hear it
ringing in my ears
from the beginning
to when it all ended
the explosion and burns
the terror what once had been joy
when it all went wrong
too far and too late
to be saved
there was no turning back

The sound never stopped
I still hear it
in my dreams
in the quiet moments
whenever I think that it might
stop hurting
because you don't remember
but I do
and the sound
never stopped

-Wilbur

Did you forget
that I'm human too
that your words can hurt
that we're not perfect
that there's nothing perfect here
that we're just repeating the past
that we didn't change anything
that I'm still hurting
that your words can be cruel
that you don't understand
that I don't trust easily
that I'm more willing to give up then hold on

Did you forget
that you can mess up too?
It seems to me
that you've forgotten
that I'm more than just a problem
I'm a person
and you forget
to treat me like one
so don't be surprised
that I want to leave
when you forget
how to love me