Naana

Naana Feb 2018

I brought myself to this horrendous decade
Darkness all over the esplanade
Nothing heard, I hear nothing said
Apart from the terror with which I’m being fed
Shakingly,tears running,I have committed internal homicide
My soul destroyed, again it needs to be purified

Disturbia,
Its simple,its the disease in my mind
Disturbia,
My faith lost,left for me to find
Disturbia,
Scared to my bones,what might occur? No time for me to rewind

My whole life in my hands ruined
All my decisions incautious,my doing
Hunting me is my disturbia ,my feeling of rueing
By its hands of evil,yes i have been varied
My superiors guidance forgotten, buried
I fear for me,I am greatly worried

Disturbia,
The chaos,my creation, i cant escape
Disturbia,
My perfect world crushed, now i have to scrape
Disturbia,
Undefined torture in its unbearable state

When shall i awake from this nightmare

The series of darkness all around me, truely near

I’m searching for thee to make my life illuminate

Out of havoc so purity can accentuate

My reality gradually has become a travia

But now its time , departure for me is the end of my disturbia.

Naana Feb 2018

Unafraid

In the darkness of the night as it engulfed me
I felt the strength I had lost now surround me
And in the silence of the night as it deafened me
I heard the whispers of hope as they beckoned me
So now tall I stand
With my head held high
And firm I stand
With my wings ready to fly
For I am unafraid of the darkness

Naana Feb 2018

LOSS...

It's everything and yet it is nothing
It's the prayer you speak out loud and in silence
It's never forgetting and yet constantly having to remind yourself
It's uncompromising
It's speaking their name with so much sorrow
It's the pain you know but can not explain
It's the driving force that navigates the course of your life
It's unassuming
It’s hearing the wind a little louder and yet silencing the rain drops
It’s seeing colours so much more vividly and yet so dull
It's the change in your perspective
It's unrelenting
It's finding your tears in the strangest places at the oddest hours
It’s sleepless nights with beautiful dreams
It’s being there for the people they left behind
It's unfailing
It's realising there's no promise of tomorrow
It's the voice you hear in the place of their absence
It's discerning life is nothing and yet it is everything
It's unyielding

It’s in the ache in your chest
The beating of your heart
It's in the tears in your eyes
The redness of your cheek
It’s in the stride of your step
The weakness in your knees
It's in the clarity of your thoughts
The serenity of your mind
It’s in the clouds in the sky
The vastness of its depth
It's in the ground that you walk
The soil beneath
It’s in the darkness that engulfs
The light that shines through
It’s in the memories of the past
The hopes of the future
It’s in the stories that you tell
The words unspoken
It’s in the blessing of their life
The impact they’ve made
It’s in the void that they’ve left
The emptiness of it

It’s loss, deep and ever true.

— The End —