September 25th 2018
You decided it was finally time,
Time to see if we worked.
We sat and watched baseball for hours
And then went on a walk.
That was the day you let me in,
The day I knew you were different.

November 13th 2018
Our first official date.
We met each other at the school dance,
It was late and chilly.
Red on black,
A first kiss.
The world stopped for just a second.

February 14th 2019
Valentines day,
You surprised me at school.
You were concussed,
but still came across the city for me.
Hot chocolate, heart shaped home made cookies, and a rose.
I trusted you.

March 16th 2019
The day after your birthday,
It was a party and I came late.
The basement was freezing,
but you stayed awake to make sure I wasn't shivering.
I stole all your body heat that night.
You said you'd never let me go.

March 25th 2019
You decided I wasn't enough.
Out in the courtyard,
We were drifting a part.
I cried twice that day.
I loved you

April 15th 2019
My birthday.
You said you missed me,
but it wasn't worth it.
I cried myself sleep.
I knew I lost you.

You left several times,
But,
You came back each time.

Are you worth it?
No.
Will I still give you a chance?
Always.
A photo cube of memories.
Me & you.

Do you ever get that feeling
When you don't want to exist,
But you also don't want to die.
So close to the point of no return,
Yet it still seems like an endless journey.
The pill is in your mouth,
But you can't swallow.
Do you ever get that feeling?

What am I to do?
I can't just tell them out of the blue.
When they don't understand,
My blade in hand.

Hidden from view,
The urge to cut grew.
It was an escape,
Cutting in a specific shape.

Hidden away in my room.
What would they assume?
My emotions are wild in a zoo
What am I to do?

He tries to get me
The help he thinks that I need.
But I'm not ready.

Instead I just need
Someone that will be there for
Me, when I need it.