Thicket of Thoughts

Thicket of Thoughts Dec 2017

Your eyes meet mine
Across the abyss
  I can no longer read the message
Written in your eyes
  You talk about hope and
Finding a light in the dark
  But I know none of its true,
Because you pushed me
  And my light away
But when you said those things
  Your eyes met mine and
We connected for a split second
  It was like making
Eye contact with the dead.

Thicket of Thoughts Dec 2017

Poison Thoughts

My thoughts are made of poison
Slowly but surely killing me
The more I drink from this bottle
Of sparkling blue liquid
The more my heart races
-You could stop drinking, you know?-
I could but the thrill is worth the pain

Poison is consuming my body
My brain to my heart
I'm sipping from this bottle
Because its all I can do
Slowly poising myself
So that I can feel the high
That comes when
Your body decides to give up

Poison dripping from my mouth
Falling where it pleases
Releasing all emotion
Back to where it came from
To that glass bottle.

Thicket of Thoughts Dec 2017

Embers

The dying embers of this fire are like love
bright and dangerous
If you touch it it will burn you
but sitting near it is great
Its warm air on cold skin
I can see the embers in your eyes
when you look at me
I can feel your warmth
when your near by
I've been wanting to run to you
but the tape around my mouth won't let me
I want your warmth
I want to fill the space
between your arms

Thicket of Thoughts Dec 2017

Its Raining

Cold hard drops of rain
It makes me think of you
  I stood in the rain until I couldn't take the cold anymore
It's like cold hands on hot skin
But with rain and already cold skin
   It felt great because I'm cold
Emotionally cold
I can't function correctly right now
  Because my mind refuses to get off the subject of you
Its like my mind is stuck in a constant loop
Cold rain
  On cold skin
    Sad and refreshing
        At the same time.

Thicket of Thoughts Dec 2017

Toxic to You

I'm scared that my love is a toxin
That it will slowly ****
Anything it dare touches
Affecting the heart
Possibly shutting it down
But I only want to love you
My dear I promise not to hurt you

I'm toxic to you
My touch will freeze you
My kiss will steal your breath
My love will be your end
I can't let myself be in love
Not when I know it will end

The same way it did before

With my lovers blood on my hands
Your blood on my hands
And a broken heart at my feet

Thicket of Thoughts Dec 2017

Fire

I was consumed by him
  it felt like inhaling smoke
    the more I tried to breathe
the more I just breathe him in
  for my love was like fire
    it consumed everything it touched
but he was the one who took my
  match
    and smothered out its flame
so now I'm left to only inhale smoke
  I am a girl with smoke filled lungs
    and a dying ember for a heart

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